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What a life!

2010-04-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

MIA for 7 months...I left this lil blog alone for the longest time.

I missed grandma badly...needed someone to listen to my grunting, share my happenings & gossip with my life. I so lost the warmth of motherly love...

Now, I'm gonna be a mama soon in the next 2 months. A new life in me & a new beginning for me.

Hopefully everything is going smooth, while I'm trying hard to pave for the new route.

No moods for blogging but still....

2009-09-13T16:50:00.009+08:00

Boring Sunday,,,staying at home lurking ard com sited temporarily in the living room & also cat nap in ah gong's bedroom.

Last Thursday, darling Jenny shopped with me at Robinson (Raffles City) to buy stuffs for the home, iron, quilt, cutleries & so...and we both each got ourselves a set of choco fondue set with some packs of semi-sweet cocoa. Headed after to Far East Plaza for some shopping. Boi, it seemed like I hadn't shopped so much for myself at a go for such long time. Burst purse on clothings x4 and shoes x4, it was therapeutic indeed. Went home at almost 6 plus after enjoying snackos at the 1st level of far east, eaten nice waffles with belgian choco dips and peking smoked duck rolls. Bought a not-so-nice Taiwan 'Ai Yu Bing' to quench the thirst.

Last Friday, darling came to my home for some webbie stuff and before she went home, we had a lovely chat & makan ice-creams out of bread & cones bought from a mobile van. Shiok! Met Zelene & HT for steamboat dinner and brought my dear ah gong, with the lucky maid tagging along. N passed a bread toaster and juice blender to Zelene as we're no longer using it at home. The kind girl gave me a pack of masks to use, there are many wonderful comments on her product, especially on her shiseido 1's and her items are always selling away fast fast!

Ya, btw this is her webbie.

N they also gave me something special from Batam.

I doubt anyone can guess wat it is.

Tadaa!!!

Is a bag for aunty to go shopping at market lor!

Ah, the thought that counts! I'm glad I've ppl like em' & the 'mommy gangs' to colour my life.

Yesterday dine at JP, before gg back home, saw a 7th month 'getai' and decided to stop and watched. Found ourselves a comfortable 2nd row and watched.

The 2 young girls can really sing Hokkien song w/ powerful voice!

This is a Malaysian guy performing his virgin show at the 7th month 'getai'. There's an aunty requesting for him to sing the famous 'No. 3 Mummy'. Refusing the offer as an amateur but accepting the 'ang pao', he got no choice but sing la. Quite surprise by his dancing & singing for the No.3 mummy. Too bad I missed recording the part cos i tot he sing only a few lines, but he did well instead.

Here, he sang an 'ah lian' 1st, then an 'ah beng'.

Left shortly as was parking on double yellow lines (Saw TP drove by).

Aiyaa, the home still won't be ready soon. Already past 7 weeks, super shag from all da' waiting liao. Touching up next week and next next week shld be e last footwork to expect.

Tomorro's a new week, start again...

=) Till then.

Shopping with ah gong...

2009-09-10T00:14:00.007+08:00

Went shopping with ah gong at Ikea. It was some of the loveliest moments to be documented. Thou' I went shopping ikea with him for a few times (in fact more times than i am with dear), the past Sunday was great. Picking over fine details with him feel so comfy and happy, even thou' some suggestions are not viable or some designs he picked are old-fashioned, it'd still do great shopping trip.

On Monday, went Daiso with ah gong, were selecting fragrant essences and looking around, figuring out what we need for the home and happened to meet dearest friend with family.

Brought ah gong to try Famous Bak Kut Teh at Balestier. Initially, he wanted to leave for other eating place having seen the queue. So luckily, there was a car moving out of the (limited & hard to find parking space) lot. It was all fate, fated to have a go at the delicacy. Good praises coming out the mouth of gong for the yummy dishes. The maid loved the soup very much too. We felt so satisfied leaving the place with a happy stomach.

Yesterday, I went to watch Coco Before Chanel, alone. I'm not being a hermit. Just tt i tot of gg for a quickie on the decision made tt day itself. To be correct, I actually watch Coco Avant Chanel, as the original version is in french. Not really showing keen interest to this 2009 version as compared to the Coco Chanel 2008 version. It's a lil twist to the storyline, different actresses and different involvement in the character.

For Coco Chanel, I like how coco traces back the story and success of her business owing to the lover. How it was before and after - Coco & Chanel.

Coco before Chanel, eliminating the chanel part, it was purely Coco and her past.

With comparision into place, I feel that coco chanel covers all from past to present but coco before chanel may seem a bit like watching a repeat. Nonetheless, I still do enjoyed the show.

Spent $7 on the movie ticket, but $2.80 for an ice lemon tea =( SO EXPENSIVE!

Will be going to robinson shopping tomorrow with 2 of my dearest friends. Gonna buy many items.... :D

Chanel

2009-09-08T14:25:00.002+08:00

Have watched Coco Chanel last night for 138 mins, is gg to watched Coco Before Chanel today for 118 mins. =D

My new lover

2009-09-06T00:13:00.005+08:00

For the longest time ever since donkey years back, I declare i'm absolutely falling in love with a digicam. It is a love at first sight.

I readily selected the color: It is gonna be PURPLE!!!!

I am twittering (sharing) hoping to get my dream cam!!! By all means!!!

This is the latest & I also believe gonna be all camwhore-lover future hot favourite.

Gosh, I've got a Samsung LED TV, thumbs-up for its amazing quality comparable to other brands, & I'm dying for SAMSUNG ST550. Best! Best! Best!

SAMSUNG ST550 = 1.5" FRONT LCD +
12.2 mega pixel +
Brillant high resolution shot +
vibration & audio feedback technology +
super clear 800 x 480 display +
Haptic sensor techonology +
27mm Schneider-KREUZNACH wide-angle lens +
Personal 4.6x optical zoom ++++
scene recognition technology in 16 setting (can recognise landscape or portrait automatically & self-adjust for perfect shot!!!) +++++++
smart face recognition technology (can register up to 20 ppl) +++++++++
HD QUALITY VIDEO +++++++++++++
RECYCLE BIN (Retrieve photos from accidental removal)

Honestly I should be engage as the spokesperson in Sg cos I'm So so in love with it!

Such technology is amazing. Love Samsung ST1000 for it's wi-fi & bluetooth functions, but imma grab my new lover soon!!!!!

I'm coming 3.5 wide-screen! I'm coming for you Dual LCD screen (Fall's most promising camera)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This week...next...

2009-09-03T20:12:00.011+08:00

Over Friday. Went Butter. Long queue. Queued till our turn & skipped the turn. 2 drinks for the cover none better than a 1.5 litre. Went lunar partied till the night was almost over.

Beginning Sunday... went John Little at S'pore Expo, bringing ah gong there for the first time. Initially kinda regret cos it was the NATAS fair as well, and it's JAM JAM JAM.

Luckily still managed to find a parking lot. My target was to buy a cutlery set cos the last time at robinson fair, me & hubby forgot to buy. Abt $199 for a 36 pcs set, contained in a nice suit-box plus another free item in another nice box as well (forgot wat is it). But so wasted, there was none at d JL fair. It was only those in light stainless steel which we doesn't want. So, I bought bowls, plates, ah gong's pillows, bolster, bedsheet set, sealed microwavable-tupperware, some keropoks, glasses and so...

Walking for about an hour not really finding what i wanted but bought what i also needed, we proceeded to the asian food fare. Buy more plates, bowls & spoons there, wanna spice up d' beautiful Kare dining set with all nice dining ware :)

Then wanna buy durian puff to let ah gong try (i've tried it before, bought @ AMK hub) & a box of 6 smoked peking duck rolls.

End our shopping day & dinner at Lerk Thai. 1st time trying there (usually will go eat d' xiao long bao at d' restaurant further up), the food was not too bad, surprisely the curry chicken was very delish, soft & smooth texture (my likings) + the curry sauce is very nice!

Following Monday was a Japanese lunch buffet with hubby & friend. Sumptuous & satisfying one, tried one of the best chawanmushi ever & black sesame ice cream (whopping $6 a scoop air-flown from japan), can try lah, but a bit too ex.

After lunch, went to Meidi-ya at Liang court to purchase toiletries, also bought a liptrainer x 4, pink for me, blue for father-in-law and dearest & green for mother. This liptrainer is too good to believe, but we still bought it & try. It looks like a pacifier when put on, but by using it 4 times a day for 3 mins each, it can maximise its effect to 90% to give a slimmer & better face feature, reduce the nos. of toilet visit in the night, for stroke patients, speech problems, gums bleeding, drooling, snoring, prevent various chronic disease, pimples, etc etc....

Not sure whether it is that great, but we were swayed by some of the positive results. Costing $89.90 per set, except for the green (rehabilitation), this simple plastic therapy device is scientifically design & clinically proven and is used in hospital. Sounds too good to believe, but we still go ahead to give it a shot, if it's really that good for being then it's definitely worth it. Dad-in-law says that he saw on TV, those cosmetic departments are selling it in Japan, and could be way cheaper than what we bought. Honestly the cost of those plastic mouth-wear looks like $5 lor. Hopefully, I dun waste the money & will use it to exercise my face regularly.

Oh, what a long story on the liptrainer....haha

Then back to Telok Blangah home, had dinner with family (ate fish-eggs, Tasty!) & went to collect d' lovely kare dining light. After that went to Balestier to continue sourcing for the hanging light in the bedroom, the shortage of the only last lighting item.

Spent quite some time choosing & selecting, also went to confirm the LED wall light & doorbell. Nothing attractive really came close to our eyes as dearie dislike chandelier, WHICH I MAD LOVE! So, I disagreed on the lights he chosen & he disagreed those I selected. He mentioned chandelier being the old design, and if i were to look into magazines, those 'IN' lightings had unique designs, which is modern & simple. But seriously, for the kind of price for lighting piece from Italy, I could really buy a big nice chandelier, but really, conflict again. Many pcs of lights from China were good copies from the western but hmmm....quality-wise. Yi-fen-qian-yi-fen-huo.

I had to keep my feelings, but come to think of it, what he said is quite true, those designs r out, it's common and cheap chandelier cost only few hundred bucks, but gd quality ones at least a four-figure sum. So ditched the tots of having one & we finally KIV one special one from Belgium, but I still insisted on sourcing for another hopeful alternate.

Was Tuesday, had lunar ghost 7th month celebration dinner with dearie & friends. I wore my favourite Miss Naughty T-shirt and dark green pants, still calling on to confirm if dear was wearing T-shirt, so i'll be wearing one too. Actually I had decided on a white blouse, somehow I feel I needn't wear so nice for such dinner, but find regrets later...

We ended up at the dinner organised in singapore swimming club. Most members/tai-tais/guests were at least appropriate min. clubwear standards & I felt a little bit out. Nevermind that, I still enjoyed the dinner throughout. Usually shout-bidding emcee speaks Hokkien, and coming out with many different sorts of Hokkien phrase, that rhymes with the figures bidded. This time, it was conducted in Chinese with selective Hokkiens. Items on bid was mostly hard liquor, sake, wine, bird nest, abalone, big sweep and the usual traditional 'huat kuay', pineapple 'ong lai' & rice with container. Other items such as cameras, juice maker, badminton racket, golf club & rice cooker were on bid too.

Love the sharksfin & mango puree dessert. Yum Yums! :p
Oya, saw Olinda Cho & her family too. She really slimmed down a lot.

Yesterday Wednesday, went to TB home and had a hot bowl of vege soup, went in search of d' last lighting at park mall, left shortly after 10 mins of walk, dissatisfied with all the chandelier once again, and going down to Balestier to find the last dim of hope. The search did not took long, we went to Lightology, which is selling very nice unique lights from various countries. From budgeted lightings to high-end lightings, many good varieties. Admiring and discussing over the different lamps and lights and finally gave up our search to confirm the light which we KIV previously.

Went Arnolds at City Plaza for dinner, and repaired my old sirocco at Dear's friend's hp shop that I put aside for like a good few months since it's mic problem. I missed using it. Ordered spring chicken and onion rings while waiting for repair. Finished dinner & happily went down with filled-stomach to collect my phone. Sold the spare phone for $40 into my pockets, haha....but dear spent $100 on something else. Went to enquire on PS3 SLIM. Yes, PS3 slim at 120gb, not PSP, is PSP SLIM coming out next week!!! Price at $550 with 1 free game, additional game console at 70 bucks each. Heard that PS3 slim could not be upgraded but PS3 80gb could be memory upgraded. But who cares, as long as it's slim.

Today Thursday, spent a day lazing, looking at paintings gg on in the house, sleeping, and growing fat. The 4 fans are finally installed today, I can't believe that fans can actually look so crazily 'chio' & add a sense of touch to the home. Love the mini fan in the kitchen that I would like to call 'ke ai'.

Tomorrow Friday, almost everything in place. Doors up, aircons up, final paintings, lights up. I can almost see a 70% view of the overalls.

The day after and, or after, Saturday & Sunday may be the shopping days for mirrors or plants or kitchen or home stuffs.

My next week...Polishing on Mon & Tue, chemical washing on Wednesday.

Almost! ALmost! My hell days r so almost over!!!!

2009-09-02T23:52:00.001+08:00

Yucks...I'm lazy yo'

Blog tomorro =)

In Their Final Hours

2009-08-29T13:35:00.007+08:00

Felt touched.

Felt similarities.

The article published in weekend today moved me, and rekindle emotions.

It described how ppl in the medic field brushes moments of life & death, and stirred by heartwrenching moments.

How some brave to move on for their loved...
How some battled with just a few days of life given...
How some fight till the end, and embraced treasured moments...

I read this:

But it's not struggling.
It's just part of the process of dying.
[Alice Heng, Nurse]

My dearest grandma parted me a year, similar to what Dr Do Su Ern (HCA Hospice Care homecare doctor) felt when his grandpa past away a decade back, that scene always remain vivid.

Now, I'm faced with the fear of another life being taken away, with unknown time boundaries.

I know that I'm stranded with remaining times to love while he's still breathing, but would rather hide scarcely beneath negative thoughts.

As above those sentences, I feel that the process of dying is really cruel, heart-paining & torturous.

I remembered my primary school teacher, Mrs Pauline Lee wrote on my autograph book & once even told me to treasure my loved ones before they are gone.

当我开始慢慢的成长瞬间, 我也逐渐深深的体会这句话的含义...

Lovely choice of destination

2009-08-27T22:33:00.006+08:00

Was deciding on a Hawaii getaway & had planned and source for relevant infos. Getting very hyped up over submarines, volcanoes visit, alfresco shopping, scenery viewing, waterfall jumping, culture shows and all. Would have loved to island-hop to Oahu, Maui & Big Island...

Dear's friend even suggested gg to Las Vegas and visit one of the 7 wonders of the world, the Grand Canyon by helicopter, and a must-visit of the worthy submarine tour for about $300 per person. Wow! How fun is it? Lovely ya...

Will never get to c that my entire life if I stay in sg, dude.

In the end, had decided on Euro trip instead and firmed my decision this morning. (Sorta change my mind for fear of H1N1 widespread in US) Wanted to visit stonehenge and spend some fab times sitting along the sidewalk cafe of Paris ppl watching or idling the Effiel Tower for photo-taking session.

Again, the hopes are dashed.

We are so gonna change plans and shoving aside all my imaginery scenic.

We decided on North Asia.

It's either a Hokkaido or Korea.

And, we've never been to both places yet. And, we would be joining friends, hence the change in plans.

Hubby's gonna go to NATAs fair this Saturday. Most probably deciding on the Hokkaido one. We had been to Japan and I mad love Japan & Tokyo. Really will love visiting Hokkaido for the seafood and gg to sapporo for the ramen and definitely spa!

Of cos, would wanna visit korea too, for skiing! and shopping! Thou' not for the food.

Thou' it's disheartening to know that i'll be shelving my plans, my hubby made me a very happy lady today, as he promised the postponing of euro trips to early next year. Thou' I think & probably feel that we might not be able to make it cos' of work committment. I'm glad, elated & definitely feel very comforted, for he tries hard to provide me what I want so long as I stay happy.

By his sincere & loving promise, 我真的已經覺得好富裕啦!

Ah dear even keep asking which one I wanna confirm and he can double-confirm everything, and eventually i opted the 2nd choices. Never mind, I should have felt happy for that since we haven't had a good holiday for sometime. Thou' I don't know when my dream holiday is coming, I know it'll still be fulfilled someday. :)

I really couldn't bear to leave my house on the 4th or 5th of Sept, for it is so rushing, and I'm totally not done with all the house reno and furnishing yet. A long list of items still hanging and bothering on...

I shall getaway in November.

HOLIDAYS....here I'm coming!!!!!!!

Still lovely...

Month Aug

2009-08-26T09:49:00.012+08:00

Oh, the lovely month of Aug... Catching-up session with my best buddies during sec school days.

With friends that used to skips schools together, stay away from home late nights, sleeping over at each others place, shopping, studying, walking to & fro school together...

It was such fond memories to retain...

We met up & went for steamboat session in Bugis. We talked, laughed & took pictures. The feeling was so great, it feels like being back in old school days. We head towards Dempsey for some ice-cream at Ben & Jerry, and boy was it super crowded on a Friday night with live singing band. We still needed some chats and forwarded our journey to the nearby Oosh-la-la. A quiet place that serve bizzare drinks. Haha...by meaning bizzare drinks, its cos i was served a vegetable soup looked-alike drink for i ordered a 'i find it' unique drink named 'Lychee Mojito'. I say the taste is unique & the looks as well. 'Ma-chiam' ('like': slang in Singlish) drinking leaves. So wild!

The night ended soon & we looked foward to the next again. :) On Sunday, met up with yet another old pal during higher schooltimes. She had delivered her 2nd child, a baby girl. I recalled the last since I met her, her then 1st baby boy was only a few months old.

How time flies... Nothing really much to talk about. Its always the same old thing, about asking recent situations, lifes and so. Spent time hanging around the buffets and watching tv dramas.

After lingering for about an hour and a half, I decided to take my leave and sit around in a coffeeshop to continue watching my favorite drama "Ai" (my tv at home is still not ready to watch). I thought the episode was ending at 9pm, so I found a cosy spot to eat the bowl of packed "Tou Suan". But it was disappointing, the beans are a little hard.

Can u just imagine eating a nice favorite bowl of Tou Suan and it ended up being a much lower than expectation savouring sensation. Soon, 9pm ticked by & the show had not ended, continued to buy myself a pack of MacDonald fries to snack me company. Tantalizingly satisfied!

When the show ended, went to fetch ah gong from Cousin's place & fiddled with my little loved back home. She's damn irresistibly adorable, I love her so much!

Till today, the home is almost on its path to completion. Finally the wait is gonna be over. Over!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All tiling works at the balcony, in the kitchen & toilets are done. Electrical & whole house re-wiring completed, glass panels for kitchen and baths are up. The other balcony is levelled up. Piecing the most arduous piece of work by cutting & joining the marbles.

(An antique for marble-cutting)

All hacking works and noisy demolition, and dirty dirty dust-enduring sessions are over too. Tomorrow will be expecting partitions up and the final fixtures of toilet stuffs. Friday our new aircons will be coming in to install. Hooray! Measurements are coming for the TV console & kitchen cabinets too. Next week will be almost final with paintings and marble polishing works. Oh, i must remember to call up harvey norman to delay deliveries of fridge until all these are over.

Hopefully all these goes thru' smoothly while hubby & me slip for a short getaway... Wonderful!

Facing a boring weekend

2009-08-22T16:54:00.003+08:00

Not only a boring weekend. Thru' the last few days, I had practically no eyes on the tv at all. Minus off the ones at the kopitiam. Not at least until Tuesday.

Luckily with this thing called computer & internet, I have access to relieve my boredom. 2 nights before I even watched the bought-and-long-forgotten dvd: Chandi Chowk To China with ah gong, the maid & the dog in the same room.

Not only couldn't watched my favorite "Ci Xi Wai Chuan" during weekdays at 11.30am, and my 9pm Hongkong drama serial, I couldn't even watched my favorite "Ai" on weekends & listen to the Hokkien songs (of cos I had the songs in my cd) but visual! visual!!

It's realli so boring, so hot & so boring & so hot!

Tomorrow's attending another baby full month's celebration. When is my turn? Pass baton to me quick lei!!!

Our home

2009-08-21T13:25:00.008+08:00

There is seriously too much changes to the house from the initial plan. But realli thanked my malaysian feng shui acquaintance for helping me out of rectifying our house FS. Even ID also headache with our last minute part 2, :p.

From kitchen & 2 bathrooms reno to a major makeover. It's very tiring, testing & enduring for me & ah gong during this time.

Now, with having almost 60-70% completed is a big heave from daily sighing. Shall sigh no more after reno. I seriously love my house and is gonna love too much in the comings, as it is simple-ly beautiful. Changes to the foyer blacony, to the new converted master room, living, dining & all.

Simple = Beautiful.
+ we love it = More beautiful.

So beautiful! Hahaha. zhen-de-shi-zi-ji-shuo, zi-ji-xiao.

Especially especially heart my Euro kitchen tiles & full-Euro accessories, Kare dining sets + Kare dining lights & bedroom bedroom bedrooms!!! 1000%!!! Love windows. Love Walls. Love Toilets. Our home is our home, no longer traces from the previous owner :)

I think it's mainly due to the hand-picked selection of all home furnishing agreed upon me & hubby, that's the greatest satisfaction and happiness. We haggled & dug around for the best favorable stuffs. Running to the same places for at least 3 x's and thru' confirming & confirming before making the purchases. Totally leave no regrets to what we've bought so far.

The feelings is full of anticipation. It's falling into a month's due of work, but I can't wait for the next 2 weeks to flash by. I'm very much looking forward for pretty floral plants & hanging pots to hang in, out & around the house. Short of buying some brand new beautiful culteries set, and more.

Can't wait for the lovely kitchen cabinet to be fixed, so I can clear all kitchen items & buy the hafele hanging rails to hang accessories. Short of hoods: seen Kupperbusch, Glem, Miele = $xxx.
:(

Excited! Happy! Contented! Love the process, thanks to hubby!

Love This! Beauties

2009-08-11T23:14:00.006+08:00

Oh...conflicting interest between the two.

Dearie love this. Me too...but

I love this too! Dearie also but..

this hafele hood is a lot bigger in size & more slanted. Thou' it can wow! but not so practical. But this is new arrival product & in fully black tempered glass. Also the lamp is using LED, so pretty + the touch sensor is so cool.

Probably I never really tried my hands on the display of the ariston 1. Cos it is so *#!@~ costly. But funny, yesterday i walk through the showroom again (oredi d' 3rd or 4th time checking out) & the display price dropped my jaws: it is a whooping more than 50% HUGE HUGE differences. How is that possible? Even GSS also dun have such offer. The latest time I past by was last friday. Counting...Saturday, Sunday, Monday, then Tuesday. Crazy lor. Definitely a good buy from the mass differences. Yeah, It seems a bargain. But this is such a struggling decision between the 2.

The ariston 1 is using halogen lamp, stainless steel, and of cos electronic touch as well. I know I will surely give in to dearie on this purchase. But isn't the black one better? Newer design, and maybe not outdated so soon too?

I like LED lights thou'...haha.

There r more & more reno additions to the home, which means $ +++. :(

Luckily the home makeover is great.

May all fortunes come after the major reno. I love my house! I love my family! I love love my hubby!

I need to read more pictures to inspire me...heeheehee

Good food for the lovely grandpa

2009-08-11T21:19:00.004+08:00

Yesterday brought ah gong to taman jurong superbowl to savour tim sum. Been there the 3rd time (1st 2 wif dear), the porridge was yummy & the tim sum was quite nice too. The best was the 'char siew' & roast pork, darn tasty & different from wat we had from other stores. After that went jalan-jalan at sheng siong & bought my fav. meiji yogurts, kinder buenos at super cheap price compared to most supermarket, minimarts and even mama shops, & bought a super delish durian cempedak.

Durian cempedak is already long digested in our stomach, and the kinder bueno I had already finished 3 packets, with another 3 left in the fridge.

Just came back from teppanyaki with ah gong. He always said that he dun dare to take jap food, I told him today he has proven it wrong. Salad, soup, main course, rice, sides, fruits and green tea were all finished! It's his first time in his life after 69 years to taste d' jap food.

Of course, this is not really very jap lah. The next time round I told him I would bring him to eat the authentic jap-jap food. Thou' he wouldn't have like to eat anything raw, I told him that with him being able to eat oyster, cockles & 'yu sheng', he's a lot much better than me.

Looking forward to everyday. Hope everyday everyone is healthy & happy =)

My Singapore 2009

2009-08-09T17:19:00.009+08:00

Today is a special day as it's d nation's birthday & a malay neighbour from dunno which block getting married at the void deck, having buffet and a gold theme wedding.

It's a very special day for me too, cos im alone.........& doing nutin'...on this special day.

Had celebrated national day yearly with my dearest best friend lover, except for this year & last's. No one to accompany me for sumptuous dinner or fireworks watching. Watch tv lor, what to do?

So, woke up before 8am today and waited for the clock to tick slowly.

- Took a nap at 10.45am till 11 plus am before having a fillet-o-fish burger to satisfy my craves.

- Fed pup her lunch at 12 plus pm.

- Drove ah gong to cousin's house at 1 plus pm, before hitting gym.

- Bought 4d tickets at ntuc, woah lucky short queue lei, maybe today heng heng ah!

- Went for kickboxing classes at 2pm, before shopping around ntuc. Bought grape-flavoured yakult, wang4 wang4 bing3 gan1 and a new ball toy for the talented gluttony, luring her to fetch me the toy i threw before she could savour her snacks. hahahaha...wat to do, nothing to do, play with dog lor. Own time own target, find fun for ownself, haizz..

No Jap food, so bought sushi & finished it while on the way back home...

Reach home at 4 plus pm and started blogging at 5 plus pm. Still waiting for the clock to tick tock. Gonna tune in tv soon to watch the national day parade.

Half a day gone & next few hours give it to tv programs.

Yesterday was better, went harvey norman expo sale & bought a dream healsio oven with more functions than a conventional oven. It could erm.. steam food, besides defrosting, baking, grilling, toasting, reheating using water heat technology. To our surprises, it can steam eggs, fish, veg as well as grilling salmon, or making crispy cookies (we tried), and even grilling french fries. hah...how gd is that lor. I think every household should have this great item cos it can make gd breakfast la. Toasted bread, steam egg..wah, nice! hmm...a healthier living, lower salt & calories. Ultimately adores this machine.

Bought as well a 3 door side-by-side hitachi refrigerator with water, ice & crush ice dispenser also. So so happy! Like dream come true! It is so beautiful!!!

Althou' I'm quite frustrated this month for no valid reason, this is also the happiest month for me to have dearest best friend lover to squeeze time to shop for home stuff with me & settle some of the home things rushing for the reno.

May all good things come soon...may my lousy mood swing temper change for the better too....

Bad July

2009-07-28T22:16:00.004+08:00

I'm so afraid...

Last year, in 2008 ah ma passed on in July, on the 29th, which 2 weeks earlier was when she fell sick.

This year 2009, ah gong got a seizure on 15th July Wed. It was the 1st episode but a recurring scare of the 3rd time for me.

The 1st time: The day when ah ma died, ah gong got shock, lost control & hence kept dropping the phone he was holding. He talk slow and seems a little lost.

The 2nd time: About 2 or 3 months back, the day when we visited ah ma for praying, once again he felt dizzy and couldn't think well. Reaction was slow and insensitive to the surrounding.

The 3rd time: (Ever since he had such problems, I'm always on the lookout for any of his face changes, actions, reactions and so forth) On 15th July, while we were dining, half-way thru', I noticed that his face doesn't seem quite right to me and something was wrong, and while i was guessing a right & prompt if he was alright, his eyes rolled up shortly after, still with food in his mouth, then became unconscious for a short moment like a min or less.

The maid & I were shouting and shaking him to wake. While I was calling for the 995 emergency, he then opened his eyes and realized himself after some short secs. Quickly the maid removed the food in his mouth and fed him some water.

The paramedics arrived and his under good controlled blood pressure was measured a high shot of about 178 for the systolic taking. They asked questions which I answered and suspected he might be suffering from a mild stroke.

That day itself, I found over the net information on mild stroke and truely it matches the description of his conditions I witnessed. The next day, on the 16th, thursday I brought him to a polyclinic for checkup as well as obtaining a referral letter as I knew he must need to have to go thru' some scans.

I drove him to sgh after polyclinic and checked him into the A & E, as i dun wanna wait for the appointment date. Some checks and scans went thru that day and he was hospitalised for other checks. I suffered one of the hugest blow of my life on that day, when the doctor told me that he had a huge mast/tumor on his lung and is suspected diagnose of cancer. Unsure whether the doctor had roughly told him about his conditions or overhearing our conversation, he seemed teary-eyed after the doctor examined him in the evening. I knew he knew about it and find it hard to accept. I held on to my tears that day and brave a front before him till I was on my way home.

I find it hard to accept.

The woman that I loved had left me.
Except for my hubby, ah gong was the next person in my life I loved & treasured most. The one who brought me up twenty-over years, to school with morning breakfast of milo, bread or eggs, to doctors whenever I am sick, bought me anything I ever wanted, gave me lots & lots of pocket money, showered me with lots & lots of love.

I am just like a superglue to him when I was young, so sticky and sleeping with him always, snatching his bolster and hanging on to him when he was driving. Always ah gong driving around, and ah ma carrying me until I fell asleep on her. I missed all those, I wouldn't want them to leave me, I hoped for the time to stop.

Y must they love me so much for me to suffer such pains when I grow up, (they c me growing when I was a baby) and now here i am taking a reverse turn of taking care of them instead, driving them around but (suffering to c them dying) instead.

I prayed hard for ah gong that few days, it was a highly possible chance of cancer and the doctor had prep me for it. Ah gong stayed for 4 days. We didn't stay for the 1st day as we didn't prepare anything, but the maid accompanied ah gong in the hospital on the 2nd & 3rd night, followed by me staying on the 4th night. On the 5th day morning, doctors wanted a biopsy, telling me that there is a 1% chance of heart attack or lung collapse. It was a big hesitation for me, I couldn't bring myself to do anything like that. Ah gong did not go thru' any of the soft persuasion too, as he thinks 69 is bad digit for the age and he will not want to go thru any ops or such tests.

I didn't want to force him, but in fact could only gave him his wishes and whatever he needed for the moment. I've to spare all my secs in life for him and my hubby as much as possible. I wanna treasure everything that is going to be taken away from me with time.

Life is so fragile, we're not gonna have many 10 years, but rather unsure of even the next day or next hour. I want to love them so much so much...

PS: Ah gong is all well & gd, we're taking at least 3 to 4 measurements on his blood pressure & fever daily, but im like having an atomic bomb in me, juz tat i really don't know when it is going to explode. Really living with fear. Anyone if u c this, please help pray for my ah gong...(may u be blessed too)

Of late & my first time...

2009-07-12T22:29:00.004+08:00

My first time yesterday using an ezlink card. Its been a long long time since i last took a bus. Since hubby had to use mine, for his is servicing, i had to borrow our maid's bus card to get to the gym.

Nowadays, buses are built pretty much spacious, and i realized that the best thing is there are no steps at the exit. It's flat, so i feel its safer. Its only 3 bus-stop away from my destination and it took less than 5 mins everytime, costing $0.69 per single trip, it not only much cheaper than 2hrs carpark cost ranging between $2.14 - $3.00++. Yes everytime i would be at the gym for about 2 to 3 hrs. So it's quite rush & I had to time my schedule to avoid d' extra $1+ charge for the carpark, and taking a bus definitely allows more time to shop around but also spend more more lah.

Still driving is convenient, park straight at the lot & took the lift up, of cos the hassle does not differ much, its only a habit we're used to. These days, I kept losing combs and even water bottle at the gym cos i forgot to keep after blow drying my hair. Argh...

Lately...we're browsing around for furnitures and going through the steps of planning for the home. It's quite interesting as we look around for different price tags of items such as hob and hood, toilet bowl, basin and etc. We also discuss design on furniture like dining table and computer table or so.

Saw a dining table made in germany at liang court we loved but did not commit and still thinking. Anyway i'm not sure if it'll match the reno of our house also, but its a unique piece, so mayb possibility quite high. Hmmm, c how first.

We had juz bought a sofa few days back from om @ liang court we both loved as it is huge and lush, 3 seater + corner + 2 seater, and our dream 46" samsung B7000 led tv today. After much survey these few months it is still d best tv around and tops our list, of cos if budget allows the dreamiest dream dream tv would be pioneer kuro, the latest version fully made in japan - woah definitely a super dream one, initally tot of buying, but budget la, better put aside for other usage: wat to do? Juz be contented as we had gotten some of the best already too. Some of our other choice are panasonic viera but the z series plasma is super duper overpriced, not value-for-money thou' it's using pioneer's panel. Wanted a plasma samsung B850, but still led is the best large tv for watching local tv show in comparison to other tv. So the decision is firm and rite. & We love wat we have.

Ai, hopefully everything goes smoothly cos hubby is working real hard, he really deserve all the finer things in life. I've not been able to help much, sometimes a lil guilty. Anyway we'll c how things work.

So, dear friends out that sorry if i had rejected the macau trip we're gonna enjoy (do u hear me dear zy & ht) and sorry if i may not be joining for d' bangkok trip too (dear janice frenzy). Cos my reason is I had to give up some to fulfill others. ...When things r rite...there's always another!

It's an enjoyable process. I will and want to remember it as much as possible.

Life is great; when we think it is.

Be thankful; so long as we're still breathing..

Omy Blog Award

2009-07-07T13:45:00.004+08:00

Was going thru' my twitter account as i intend to add it here in the blog. Whilst scrolling thru' & deleting unwanted mails, I juz realized tat there's ppl who actually nominated my blog for the omy award in April. Thanks Alvinology!

Anyway it's too late to register for it. But was a happy surprise for me.

Been kicking & boxing too much for the past weekend. Sweat till the hair is very wet; the feeling is o-so-shiok!

But confessing tat I've been munching hard too...how to keep in shape this way?

Too much spare time on hands, will be blogging muchie too! =D

Continued back from d' last post

2009-07-02T14:28:00.012+08:00

We didn't go to lunar that night, but went to our friend's newly opened place, Social House @ Liang Court.

Well, we enjoyed the night's off with lotsa boozing, laughing & entertaining within ourself. We were shown to how d' private karaoke rooms looked like, the jap restaurant menus, kitchen, and private party arena. We were entertained by dancing of some handsome dudes and a lot of sexy girls, there is even one girl who did a strip-tease dance (ps: down to wearing the minimum of cos).

I found pics of the cheongsam I'm wearing when I shown to Janice yesterday when she visited my place & my pup.

This is the one. When I was 19, waistline 23" :)

Remember we talked about my classes at amore. Well, so far I have attended quite a number of different classes. The first 2 was jazz & lo-impact (not stretchfit), then subsequently kickboxing new body, stretch fit. Then another class of stretch fit and lastly cardiolatino yesterday.

Let me go through one by one what I had learnt, the differences and processes I enjoyed.

Jazz: Its dance movement is graceful. But unlike those jazz dance that we see on Jacky Wu' s show where plenty girls danced, it look so nice & beautiful but in actual when I first learned, my hands and legs coordination wasnt' so good. Maybe I could have done better if I attend a few more lesson. Feel the sweat when its coming to the end part only.

Lo-impact: Well, I like this too, and am able to follow through what the instructor had taught, just that I feel the usage of arms, or toning of that area was not quite emphasize. But overall was great and fun, and involves those kind of cha cha cha moves too.

Kickboxing: Wow, I finally know why so many ladies attended this class. I must say it is very powerful. Powerful kicks, box, elbows, tummy hits and so, it was so forceful. The instructor is very good. She tells us not to knock on the door but to gives heavier punch or box when we perform those moves. She is not only graceful when doing the warm-ups & downs, she is definitely a motivating one.

It can get very very tiring doing the kickboxing with so many kicks. If my treadmill run can score me a heart rate of max 180's per min, then I guess this kickboxing would even more +++ it makes use of all our body parts. As I am a beginner and also a first-timer to this, it gets even more tiring...thou unsure if im juz building up my stamina. At times I find it difficult to even lift my legs, after lifting it for so many times. I confessed i even cheated a bit by skipping some moves or not working hard on certain moves.

Initially I thought, oh how come there is no short break at all, and we just keep continuing and continuing, I really really feel so much like stopping, but thanks to the encouraging instructor and the big group of class, it pushes me to go further.

I really loved this class and will go again & again. I wanna tone my body!!!

Next up was the new body class: This lesson was taught by the same kickboxing instructor, and was the next lesson after it on that saturday too. It makes use of dumb bells to tone our body parts. I loved this too as, she focus on our arms, thighs, abdominal, butts or etc.

But the part that I dislike is holding on to, or performing certain moves that held on to the weight, as of cos again to a greenhorn like me, I felt that my arms were super tiring, and the 2kgs dumb bell each on one side, eventually becomes like 5kgs after holding to some posture.

But I'll definitely go again for this class, as toning is very important, and it is one good class to attend, of cos with the motivation of this lady instructor.

Strechfit 1: The first stretch fit lesson I attended was taught by a petite instructor. She touches on stretching every parts of our muscles on the body, some simple yet useful moves. She mentioned that it helps to prevent breast cancer and osteoporosis, While doing certain stretch, we can hear some of the popping sounds, which is like air trap surrounding our bones area. Good instuctor, after the stretch my body felt relieved too.

Stretchfit 2: The 2nd stretchfit lesson was taught by another lady instructor, and this was her class after power yoga. I thought that some of her moves actually comprises those of yoga, and is a different version of the stretchfit class I had attended. She looked very nice & pleasant. I can't really define exactly how her stretch fit classes are like but there was also making use of the tummy area and butts area, which I like most too. Her class is enjoyable and relaxing. Love it!

Cardiolatino: Cha cha cha....More to the sexy dance move. This is the class taught by a male Phillipino instructor other than the jazz class I had previously attend. Wow, we can really learn how ppl dance cha cha. Just that I did it quite funny as inexperienced. Even sexy moves can become weird poses. Haha....but really enjoyed it. Cardio level was okay, the pace was kept quite steadily throughout.

My tots: Through more of these lessons, I feel that my stamina gets ahead better with time. Every different kinds of classes have different kinds of warm ups and downs. All the instructor were equally great. I enjoyed each & every of the classes and feels fun, & the 1 hr kicks by real quickly, compared to an hour of boring run on the tread. Also, then I learnt new dance moves & make my penny worth. I wanted to remember all those moves when I came back home or have it written down, but lazy me....So hack it.

So much so on the exercising & energizing part, back to my home again...

Lastly mentioned on reno-ing the house. Hiiiya....count left right up down, also tat certain amount for reno, not including additional new furnishing. Really headache. Needs to get hold of $ the shortest possible time, but difficult. Don't wanna delay the process on the conceiving part but of cos' also wanna reno the house. Really realy wanted lor. Dun wanna take loan, it's a no-no. Dun wanna pay for years after years for debts. It gets so tiring & stressful on the tot of it.

Hopes that my Ace of Pentacles on the Tarot Card Reading comes true!

Its been long

2009-06-27T10:42:00.004+08:00

Lazy~!

If I could have posted pictures, yes plenty! not of me, but my new pup, a toy poodle in parti colour, the biggest surprise I had which I brought home on 5 June 09. She's named Tiffany. Videos of her, half a dozen. More of her, of cos...but not now...

I still remembered the first living thing given to me by my first love when I was 12. It was a goldfish. I kept for a day, and through feeding the wrong stuff, I can't recall if it was biscuit or bread, and it died the next day. The 2nd living animal received was from my previous longest steady bf was a white rabbit which I reared from a palm size bunny to a big-sized one. So this third one from my hubby is definitely a great surprise. She is god darn cute, and I need a blog post itself to talk abt her. So, till next tym.

Since then I had been playing with her, getting pretty much occupied, + recently I had joined gym at amore and ~ so far so good. Years back, I went to gym wif my gd galfriend mandy, now I had to go alone, but i does not feel any distances or boring when I'm in the gym, I pretty much enjoyed doing it alone too. Membership is expensive, so I took the 1 year plan only for fear of no committment later. Spent $1320 + 10%. Good thing is that it extends for mc, overseas or pregnancy. So, I must say it is good for me.

Had went for 2 classes till now. The jazz class was taught by a Phillippine male instructor and the Stretch Fit class I attended yesterday was taught by a pretty late 20's female instructor. I must say I pretty much enjoyed those lessons & lose some carbs through those fun. I used to go for the hip hop class donkey years back, the male instructor was dancing great too! I will want to try the yoga & belly dance :D. O'yeah, and I went for a steam bath too, I told myself imma gonna bring my beauty mask the next time round.

Today is Saturday, and imma gonna go for kickboxing class at 12.30pm followed by a new body class at 1.30pm. Often I would spent time in classes for warm up, before proceeding to the treadmill for a 30min cardio run (well i used to run for an hour: i need to step up again), then other cardios, then weight lifting and crunches. I'm maybe looking forward to go for a swim at amore swimming pool at tampines 1, and try out the oxygen room. Well, it's far away, but since I got a birthday party to attend at bedok tomorrow, might as well on the way.

Yup, probably getting my body in good shape to fit in a nice bikini before I get preggie one day and leaves a flabby stomach, so I gotta do it. Of coz, for some good reasons, I had to prep myself for good body conditioning, so that my future baby will have a good environment to grow in my stomach.

Back last week, I did something which I wanna do for a long time. I did vbeam laser on my face to get rid of my strickening acne redness. Damage was $960 including consultation, creams, mask & laser. Boy was it expensive, it hurts so much to overblow the savings. But face is important! So? Worthy or not? I must say rather effective, and dr chua from sloane clinic is good, and while she chatted along wif me when she did my face, it makes time flew. However as what is recommended a 6 sessions would do wondrous. That's a package of $3000. I'm still considering hard as that's a lot of money to me, to cough out an additional $2.4k is no easy task. I can do so many things with it, like buying some pieces of furniture for the house, or buying a new bag or save for the whatever emergency i might land in.

Talking abt home, ever since we shifted in our home for the past one and a half year. Almost everyday, there is basketball, ping pong and badminton. So, we always gets the musical sound of sports from below. Sometimes, pok pok pok....., or pin porg ping porg...

Finally we made the decision to renovate the house. We're left with no choice as the preparing of baby conceiving, we have to hasten the decision. Making baby is not as easy as whipping up a meal, we never know the success rate so we gonna try asap.

Well, and thinking of my friends lately, close friend like mandy, even without frequent contact, we still have d mutual understandship and friendship. And good close friends like Joyce becomes sensitive of my behavior and Janice, makes me feel even closer as she always keep in check of my mood, and becomes a pot where I can pour my unhappiness and share my happenings. I guess that's what real friends are, they are not afraid to come to you when when u r a lil down, and they do not fear of listening to what u r gonna grief. Wow!

Girlfriends accompany you, goes shopping, mani pedi, and gossip....wow! Yes, I bought a lovely dress from Bebe, again with encouragement from my close friend, Janice. And Im planning to wear it on my bro-in-law's wedding. So looking forward! Definitely post pics of the dress when I wear it. Absolutely absolutely adore it! I can't remembered the time I spend so much for a dress, the last was probably a tailored -made goldish butterfly bare-back chio cheongsam I had years back. Just wore it twice, waist inch 23, guess I can no longer fit in anymore and shall keep for remembrance.

Had sent my Cartier watch for servicing, change batteries and crystal glasses and oiling the movement, custom made a white lizard strap which I will receive in 6 months. Finally a good change from my 2 previous alligator dark-coloured ones. Gosh, hoping to wear it during X'mas, best if I can recieve earlier.

Okay, and last to talk about was I wished for a miu miu coffer bag. Too bad we will be renovating the house soon. Everything is so out of budget and pocket will be tight. I'm gonna scrimp and save hard to buy things for my lovely house. :)

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p>Pretty much for my life now like this...Gonna meet the girls tonite at Lunar! Yippie!! Loves!!!

HDB & Ice cream cons

2009-06-03T23:12:00.004+08:00

Majorities in s'pore stays in a hdb flat...& of cos unless i strike toto im no different.

But im totally not sadden abt tat part, im so contented wif wat i have, happy...glad & treasured it! Save that for my next life lah!

Everytime early in the mornings, we would get irritated by the 'karung guni' man aka the used newspaper collector a.k.a used radio, tv & clothing collector who pays a miserly sum to our used items. Of course, at times they get items for free.

Each time they would travel from level to level in hdb high-rise buildings, shouting -------> Karung guniiiiii...videoooo...radiooo...dian si giiii ('tv' in hokkien). It ryhmes!!!

& late sleepers would probably b annoyed by em'. & Yes...my place got plenty of karang gunis too. Tat's d disadvantage staying in a hdb. BUT, but last time when i used to meet customers who stays in landed, i must also say that i get pretty annoyed by dog barks, especially during the evening times, or when some ppl passing by or when they go haywire? Its nothing better than those karang guni shouts.

Alright, im definitely not boring my post with this karang guni thingy, its just a phase of tots. Its actually the ice cream.

Sometimes we do get vendors visiting our home for the so-called 'door to door' biz, selling items of non edibles to edibles, eg: yakult, curry puff (in d old days), hifi, wok series etc.

Oya'...i used to do tat too...but selling alarm clocks! I combed a few blocks but i got ZERO sales! & i tried another time selling children's educational products in commercial buildings to OL, responses were equally bad. So, from then on, i gave up and decided to hate door to door sales!!!

Okay, back on track... to the ice cream thing. Yes, now so oftenly we get ice cream sellers. (Teenagers)....(used to be yakult sellers are aunties and curry puff sellers malays)..

ok, today we got a pair of teenager, a guy & a gal at the door. My grandpa walk to em' & spoke to em', yes d' finally part is we bought from them too. I did walked to the door after my grandpa wants to buy the ice cream & while waiting for her change, i briefly looked at the white styrofoam box they contained those assorted ice-cream flavours from durian to choco to red bean & sweetcorn.

This ice cream cost us $12.90.

Which i would labelled as expensive! Same sentiments is shared by ah gong. So we chatted after we bought the ice cream and i got to know that the young girl actually told ah gong that she's from malaysia...and her parent is sick back home & she's working part-time during her school holidays now, and wants my ah gong to help her.

Initially i tot they r some flyers distributor, but when i know we're going to buy some ice cream, i did not hesitate, thinking that its gd to help ppl who works hard & since we could afford and it doesnt cost a pinch, i wouldnt say no.

But it sorta annoys me to find out the fact that she resorts to sympathetical dialogues for selling her stuff, and getting a soft-hearted elderly to buy the ice cream from her.

Take this-------without knowing the conversation between them, i bought the $12.90 ice cream gladly for it being expensive. Hey! 1 tub of haazen daz might juz cost merely a few bucks more & sometimes i couldnt even bear to buy for myself.

So, principally or morally or i should say conscientiously i dislike the way she made her sales pitch. She did caught a customer at heart to buy from her & no doubt a sale is a sale, but i juz dislike how she used pity to made ppl to buy expensive products from her. Surely there's a better way????

Reading till this part....thinking tt im mean to say this? Thinking tt she might be truely poor?Well, im not one who likes to pick on ppls fault & showing it off.. but judging the way shes dressing, her speech... she doesnt sound malaysian to me, & her well-pedicured toes totally sold her off.

She's probably a student whos earning the bucks during school holidays. It doesnt matter so much as to the overpriced value of the ice-cream but the scheming conning lies to make ppl buy from her.

=o Probably it might be my misjudgement of her, but whether its experience or six sense or feelings, it seemed to me a packed of lies for her explanation to close the sale. Nonetheless, its just a pea issue, but i just feel like voicing my points.

Bumble Bee Friday

2009-05-31T12:31:00.002+08:00

Woah...activities everyday.. guess days without work really ain't too bad. I wouldn't had been able to go out if im workg.

Yep, friday just gone to ikea to get some curtains. Too bad it's out of stock, but luckily i found blind made of the some material that i wanna get, it's called trappler, those kinda black out blinds....now my room is very cosy place to sleep in. Get curry puff for me & ah gong and hot dog for the maid. After we had shopped, we moved on to the next destination at somewhere near bugis-bencoolen. Looked ard for a gourd to put in ah gong's room, yes to cure illness star in the west. Finally found one that we like, bought some lychees and settled for a bowl of 'gui ling gao' and herbal tea before going back home.

Evening time was date with hubby & friends. Went for foot reflexo the 2nd time in the week. the first we even went ear candling. Wow, it was shiok, service & place was gd, i even managed to catch my last episode of drama comfortably lying there for the hour. The lucky best time of my massage. Hmm...following yummy supper of crab, ba-long-long drink, dozen after dozen of chicken wing, prawns, mushroom......wow...seafood!

Alright then back home we go...

Yesterday we went shopping for lcd/plasma....still havent found a suitable...not really but gd ones we like, reallY $$$xXx. we have waited months to search for a gd one, so what's a wait to another IT show. Last 2 weeks, we went to the show at suntec & orchard, prices werent slashing like crazy or, wholesale as per advertised. Nevermind....hopefully we can get our dream tv soon. we'll wait for prices to find a best deal!

Janice coming next tue to my home to do nails for me. Yeppy, so happy! Gonna appt wif da' girls next sat, but first before to cindy's bb full month. Then we'll be gg to a newly opened club by my friend at liang court, social house. Hmm...looking forward to the week!

Havent been uploading pics to my blog, guess gonna do so, otherwise in the future when i looked back, i might missed out a lot of memories.

Woooohhh....i love my life!

Love my hubby!!!

2009-05-23T18:29:00.003+08:00

Retract my previous impulse post & statements...........

I love love love my lao gong. Wow.......nw i know y i do love him deeply & madly as always, it must be truly his love for me.

Hmmm....sweet bits...juz like my hubby :P

Oh...& Im so ever happy today! I realized tat if he's not tired, we do stick to each other a lot!! i must be insane at d' fumbling & frustrated mood when i wrote in a spite on tat occasional mood swing. Haha...im back 2 norm again...

Love life as it is....& treasuring it....

My love life

2009-05-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

I NEVER blog such things....but somehow i feel like penning down as part of my memory tots. Lately, i tried some quizze on facebook...& i realized something..I know erm, for the fact tat my partner IS (all along meaning) like this since we started dating...& still d' same after marriage...It's been past our first decade of love & strong relations...

But...

our love/behaviour is kinda different,,,comparing to most couples or my previous relationships...

We did what most couple does...probably as time goes by or as what my hubby's nature is, we seldom to or either a----------long long time of never holding hands/french/sleeping like d; first night on bed/...................goes on

We do kiss each other nighty or goodbye, sometimes a once over the blue moon bear hug. At times, accidentally touches my hands or while crossing the road, we held hands.,.. and yes he does want my blew kisses over d phone.

Oh my, typing away i feel a bit of whining right here abt what lesser romance i'm getting...i'm very sure he does love me,,,,(or mayb he's too man?..mmm)

The bell rung when i met this question in the quiz: Does he always/sometimes look at you? (something like this)

It was me who always look at him, as sometimes we did not have everyday together, or rather so, i suppose a lifetime with him is still insufficient.

Oh my, oh my! this my thinking or is ......................................JUST WHAT AM I THINKING?

Gosh, am i in the right mind? But should my lover be doing this? Or i'm just asking too much?

He knows tat he is not a v. romantic person, but of course he is still romantic at times. Though he always give me blissful happiness, cut down my worries and......sometimes extremely lil surprises.............

well well, there was this question that i asked him the other day.

"Dear, what makes you happy"?

After given a v. short thought, he replied as long as he sees that i am happy, he is. (I & all ppl who knew us knows it true) (& I know that he does tat....cos even if he can pluck the stars for me whilst sacrifices endless obstacles or buy at a price he can afford so long i love it, he would get it.)

But just but...forget it/ maybe im just asking too much...the things tat i wan r way too countless...& 1 after another.

I really dun wanna grow old like this......i kept telling him that we won't be like this old couples walking right in front of us holding hands at their age. (almost most of d' time i saw tis scenario) But won't we? or am i just thinking too much. (But he always assured me tat we'll do)

I KNOW THAT HE DOES NOT HAVE THIS REGULAR HABIT!!! & especially hugging/kissing in public is extremely extremely 'paiseh' (shy) for him.

Sad 2 say this, but i hope this my hubby is a better romancer...i felt guilty for blogging this right from the heart instead of expressing to him...but i guess he knows tat...he'll probably understand me...

He's busy & tired from his work....he tries but

Okay...I am married to him, but doesn't mean a wifey should be condemn to more privilege of such a gf enjoys.

Sometimes i wonder hw sweet is our love...he spends his most precious time with me going shopping, movies, fairs, holidays, whatever together while depriving part of his gd sleep/time/everything else.

His love is ultimately responsible, caring, doting, trusting...........

many many mores i can name it.....i deem him as d' most perfect hubby for me.....

i guess just some of tis lil imperfection flaws in him, i wanted....im just greedy lo...

He gave me a ruler but i need a measuring tape.

He never takes me as a burden......&

Is it our love / actions / behaviour too normal / peaceful like old couples that i could seldom to never feel this type of .........................dunno hw 2 describe :(

Rambling & rambling.......alright just as long as i feel gd...it doesn't kill me 2 blog this right....

It's just some of my feelings tat i feel im not getting enuff...although im given at times....

SPOLIT BRAT!

but.........he understand me much, but.........why doesnt...........

well.....he just cant give the world to me........

& i have to understand...

Ps:......i wrote this cos i feel like im the position as his wife & someone he loves very much...but i also want to inject some 'part tor' (dating) feelings into my love life le...he told me tat nobody can get back d' same kind of feeling that they first met/date...but this is different ma'? (I really dun wanna feel like he treats me as his wife only, but no LOVE!) I dun mean the love included to fulfill what was in the marriage vows.....but d other kind of love..............aiyo aiyo how 2 say????

& i dun wanna feel like he loves me mentally....i may need some physically proves like staringly lovingly at me / looking at me during some nice meals....not as a best girl partner in the world....but d' kind of....(cant explain)

10 years...

everything is so normal so normal so normal.................................................

I want to pursue happier romance, i dun want 2 be d' initiator in tis, i want to feel tat he loves me as his woman.......

YES, i think i found all the words in the empty blanks tat i cant feel in....Mentally i know he loves me v. much as his woman..but physically...is it cos, im not a 'woman'? (d feminine/womanly/sexy/blank..i dunno how 2 put it) Is it i am getting more unattractive?, or is it cos we are together for too long & too used to each other?

Can i dun want this?

I can't tell him cos .......

- maybe he'll get angry i ask too much
- it feels kinda weird to me, i feel funny telling him this
- i just simply dun fe3el like telling him this

But there is something i realise in man....when a woman never tells and use either hinting to make d' man guess it...d' man would never know what she wants....AND i am always like this...keeping to myself whatever shit i may have. Even after blogging for so long im still thinking should i post such personal tots to share.

Gosh.....this is a word by word long nag from my sudden frustration.....after the end of the last sentence + full-stop, i hope i will feel better & lose my wilfulness & get back to my right state of mind. It is not this way...maybe i am too sensitive & wanting too much & berserk.

Well,,,

How's my next 10?

Am i overboard? Am i complacent?

Okay......after the end of this long blog.............i really really feel some much better & probably things r not as what i feel, after relooking & considering it...Be it yes or no.......? Just take it or leave...he is already the best!

Now & ever...

2009-05-17T09:48:00.004+08:00

Yep, been indulging into a rather restless lifestyle recently. Eat, sleep, online & repeat. Wasting away...yeah yes or no...i'm loving every bit of it.

At least I've got all the time in the world to spend with d' person I love.

Catching a relaxing short breeze...when i need no one to approve my leave

& best of all, dreaming away buying a toy poodle for myself, sitting on an imaginary new massage chair, watching a 46" tv.......& continue dreaming....wahhahaa...living live to the fullest is being happy at all times...& i'm ready to achieve tat....

Problems again...& the next few things

2009-04-26T16:40:00.004+08:00

Nah...I dun have any physical challenges in life right now. All's doing good for the moment. Happy, peace...nothing to think or worry about at the moment, except for making more bucks for more wishlist....Haha..everyone's doing tat right...

Juz got some problematic problems with my com. Couldn't read my usb reader so I couldnt upload any pics....ah...ok, might as well stay this way....one more week longer & I'll give up on uploading d' pics....d' pics of beautiful sand, sea & sun....mmmm...I missed those breeze...

I'm going to market on every tuesday from nw on...d' supermarket's food is costly with limited choices. thou' we can save much more but the drive takes an hour to & fro ^_^

Considering of gg back 2 gym again @ amore...gotta keep fit & healthy b4 im planning 4 a baby & watsmre they can freeze d' package if u're preggie...oh hw great!

My timetable-draft for d' following week:
Mon: Sign up for gym, gym & classes begins...
Tue: Go to wet market
Wed: Closed door Robinson Sale
Thur: Facial?
Fri: Blood Donations? / Party?
Sat: Outdoor 'jalan jalan' (walk walk)
Sun: East Coast? / Swimming?

Wahahah....1 week to a happier u =D
(but actually i still prefer to stay hm & laze...)

Wat abt U?

Fix it up...

2009-04-20T11:27:00.006+08:00

I finally cleared up the storeroom, reorganize the bedroom & balcony...

...arising from the start of fixing the stupid com. My 1st original charger died on me, now the second, after hard times of uninstalling & reinstalling xp com and tuning my 2 broadband modems, sometimes irking me with connection probs, other times some stupid error, and another com of vista version tt dear brought me had to update d' modems, reading different help topics and gg thru' all possible causes....im so sick of doing this everyday for the past 2 to 3 weeks...tweaking here & there to access to the net.

Having an additional 2 other monitors and processors doesnt help too... try to fix it up a few times, and gave up after trying...& proceed on saving my laptop..& when laptop died...i go back to the same process....so after never-ending cycle and gives-up...I finally succeeded & got it done & locate myself @ d' balcony. (Dun like to have Tv or com inside rm, bedroom is for gd sleep, no disturbamce! :)

At least I can stop calling the technical helplines, as all they could me assist with is only the surface job...

I've always been lazy to clear up places, but I've got this 'guai pi' that once I started touches on something, I would go on & on and start packing on the others surrounding environment & trying to beautify it.

Yesterday, the rod that is hanging on my clothes got itself into an accident as I had overloaded d' clothes', it was broken...so while packing d' storeroom stuff all over the place in the living room, I had to halfway go back to d' rm and superglue, bandage and tied it up to secure it, then cover up the ugly damage with pretty scarfs and bags...gd creation I must say, now the racks look even better than it used to be...

Some off track hm issues....

I was thinking of buying a burgundy poodle, I really really like it a lot...but le...wat if im going to conceive a baby soon....then quite troublesome right?

After baby...where got time for dog, I think will focus a lot on baby then...but I really want the dog...too.....hmm....if got dog next time hse got renovation also difficult...so many considerations.....

For beauty's sake

2009-04-13T20:24:00.003+08:00

Feeling heaty, got plenty of acne, getting rid of internal toxin? Nah...not promotion here. Just a beauty drink... for ppl like me with acne problems

Beauty beverage:

Hokkien pronouce 'leng yong'...good for cooling body heatiness, the way it's made taste even better than crysanthemum, heehee...better...like bird nest drink...yummy*

Want to know how to make it drinkolicious?...

One packet of 'leng3 yong2' (from any herbal store) -$12

One big bowl of water

Few winter melon stripe -less than $2

Oh yes, preparation:

Boil winter melon with water until it turns white in colour. Remove winter melon and boil 'leng yong' with the water. Boil in crockery pot for 2 hours. Remove all herbal particles & taa-da!

Yum Seng!!!!!!!

Making Ondeh Ondeh

2009-04-12T13:26:00.016+08:00

Oh, recently make almond jelly and ondeh ondeh. I'm a tad lazy to write throu' d' process, so I'll juz shortcut a bit.

Making ondeh is a quick & simple recipe :)

We begins:

Ingredient
(The Skin)
1) Sweet Potato, 2 pcs
2) Tapioca Flour, 200g
3) Sugar, 3 tablespoons
4) Coconut milk or water, use coconut milk from 1/4 grated coconut or 100g
5) Optional: Pandan essence for slight flavoring

(The fillings)
1) Palm sugar / gula melaka ($1), ps: it's better to use chop pcs of gula melaka for easy wrapping - tips: use knife to chop with help from the strength of a pounder

(The coating) - mix evenly & steam for 5 mins
1)Grated Coconut (about 1/2 pc, approx $0.70)
2) 1/2 teaspoon of salt

Recipe:

Peel & Steamed sweet potato until soft.

Pound steamed sweet potato until mashed.

Mix Tapioca flour with sugar evenly.

Add sweet potato to the flour and knead.

Add coconut milk slowly and knead until dough is soft.

Boil a pot of water. Do a trial test to test the filling & Q-ness of texture.

Form small ball from the dough. Flatten ball and wrap in the palm sugar / gula melaka and seal up.

Add all wrapped balls into the boiling water and cook until it floats to the surface. Dish out and drain.

Roll and coat with the grated coconut.

Put in fridge for 10 mins, and ready to serve.

Ps: Do not put in the fridge for too long or it will lose it's Q-ness and becomes hard.

Oh. I really was away

2009-01-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

Just browsing around the net which I dun so often do now, I check if my blog is still around...& seen that I had been away since Nov. Time flies and my dearest ah ma had almost left me for half a year...

I couldn't stir any real desire to blog words or pics. Somehow, still, feeling my hands on the key typing away doesn't seem too bad. Chinese New Year's a few days away, and it pains to be missing my dear love around. I'll be going by the columbarium on the eve of Chinese New Year to pay her a visit. Went to watch Love matters last night, and before the show starts at vivo, I bought some magnetic tiny pcs, resembling bowls of dumplings, red beans soup, prawn noodles, porridges and maggi mee. I know it sounds silly, but yes I intend to stick on the tombstone...it reminds me of her...picking up those magnetic pieces last night really feels in me..no matter what I buy, it's dump or dumb.

This year is a colder new year with just me, ah gong and the maid...Life's still goes on..& will not turn back...

oki...anyway...tomorrow i'm gonna do some last minute shopping if i have time..still shorta a cardigan, i think i'd like a black and a new pair of stockings, some new bras and panties...new eye stuff..maybe a new lipstick color, and i would need a shisedo uv make up base, a pair of earrings...hopefully sufficient time to luckily secure a mani pedi services and an abrupt visit for a hair dye. If all in all doesn't turn out to be any of the above, i guess just leave it. I'll not gonna care so much abt it...& i think this could probably be the only year i'm not gonna take new year's pic.

of cos,,, i definitely would have no time for ikea shopping or dolling up my room. i've not even really go and pack my room stuff..but who cares...as long as it's clean...i'll probably hack care...too.

oh yes, i need some thumbtack, superglue & scotchtape for sticking those things..

The feeling is absolutely bad...

2008-11-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

I lost my beloved hp.

It's sad...

I miss my dear phone so much...

All my friends or enemies ->Pls update my your contact nos.

Thanks!!!!!!!

Email to: mysharoning@gmail.com

U hate this word - FAT

2008-11-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

Shit*! Eat & EAT & eat & EAT...

Wish I could be distracted by things that can keep me busy.
U know cos i dun waste food...i can eat like 4 or 5 main meals a day. (Rice with veg with meat Etc...)

This is not right! Carbo...then fats! Argggggh!

Enough! I dun think I can ever go on a diet with my foody mentality full of food images & food prioritize-mindset.

Every now & then I craved for ang gu kueh with yellow 'dao sa' (bean paste) fillings, french fries, kinder bueno choco, rice with side dishes, char kway tiao, carrot cake, malay rice etc etc.....................

How huh, liddat?????????

In for a surprise

2008-11-03T12:30:00.005+08:00

October had been so..., and november is juz outrageous...

Had watch tropic thunder (laughing our ass off) & Saw 5 (squeezing away my packet of milky sweets as was crushing the man / gushing the blood through those blades) in the past week with an added surprise in btw.

Nov 1 was the date for dinner with hubby & his friends...Kallang Leisure...

Alright...we grab a mac meal before arrival...COZ he was too hungry...(i tot we're gonna have dinner soon....but anyway.........i'm dying for french fries too..)

Upon reached Kallang, saw plenty of ppl & was wondering whose concert is it?

While walking towards Leisure Park, at the point where it's leading to the bridge...he flashed this!

Without taking a good look, d' 1st 00000000.1 sec to 1 sec, I was thinking away ehhhh....a ticket?!?! (Hmmm?!? Whose?!) Took a good look &

It was CRAZY! IT was CRAZY! IT was CRAZY FOR ME!

Lee Hom has got the best concert amongst all the top celebrities...Last year we went...This year I wished...& my wish came true.

It was really a sudden surprise, cos it happens when u dun most expect it... I was expecting a dinner treat instead. It gotcha...it got me...

And thanks to this....we were abt less than a metre apart from him in his galore presence on the stadium ground. Whoa! Wow! Au!

Happy.....Hope my nov & dec & next year goes well too.......!~*

Plenty of work to be done.......

After 2 months

2008-10-05T15:00:00.003+08:00

Days after days, 2 months past...

Last night, lala mentioned abt d' blog, & Gar too asked abt this 'Xi Kor' (rusty) blog.

Frank truth of those months within had caught me in a life of stillness.
Life for the past months wasn't too bad, but it just ain't complete; cos A BIG PART is missing.

Space more empty;
Air tranquil,
Tv shows on deaths & funerals thrusting deep to hearts;
reminding us of that one person again & again.

Night, the time come of emotions;
stir waves of deep affections.
Memories, etched in mental faculty;
drew images of laughter & sadness.
Blog, the place of creations & writings;
almost lost in touch with time, with;
forgetful feelings killing the finger search of keys on board.

We managed past the 1st month, so at times it seemed the 2nd just got easier. Somehow in frequent discharge of the day for each & every day is spent on reminiscing her voice & images.

I still & always couldn't forget the day she died. Telling myself why she left...so people actually will leave one day, not in your anticipation even though it is in existence. Prepareness is caught unprepared, we are never prepare for death...not mine, not theirs.

Things changes...bond with my mum is better, we got a maid which is marvellous, I'm slowly learning to apprehend happiness surrounding.

Hmm....I always wished I would see her again...but it's never gonna happen till my death. I've dreamt a total of 4 times of her, feeling happy awake whenever I see her in dreams...

I know I will write to no end of this...for a start of writing...I just wanna do so...blogging touch, like I've just mentioned almost lost to the mood.

Spending 26 years with her, I now have to use a lifetime to tolerate the pain...
It is such a miserable punishment...& I'll be so scared to go through any of it again...

Ah ma....I miss u..

2008-08-08T08:08:00.007+08:00

On July 29, abt 5.30am: my 70 years old beautiful, cute, lovely & beloved ah ma departed me.

26 years of my deep affection to you, nurtured by you... remains & hurts...

I can never have imagined there'll be a day I'll see her lifeless without breathing & heartbeat & motion. It's forever etched deeply in my memories & heart...

I knocked off from work and reached home around 9plus where she was already asleep in the living room. Ah gong wanted to take care of her, but i insisted I could..yet...i dunno wth i'm doing by allowing her to sleep on the sofa, not bearing to wake her up from her sleep...& so she continued to sleep like this forever...(why didn't i sensed that she was semi-unconscious & not totally tire-out, when she seems to be having some difficulty to wake?)

She was with me the whole night in the living room.

She: was sleeping on the Fann wong's auctioned sofa we all loved, with a tiger-striped blanket.

I: was sleeping on a beach chair beside her with my blue plush doggie & blanket, intending to look after her, on behalf of ah gong so that ah gong can rest soundly in the room.

I was awakened by every little movement of her & accompanying her throughout till 3 a.m. Little did I know my wake at 6 a.m. would be something so different.

heart really sank when ah gong touched her leg & said in hokkien: ah ma 'bo2 ker3 liao4' (ah ma no more / ah ma is gone), i was like (in my heart), 'HUH'? is ah ma dead? Then...i couldn't believe she's dead, & couldn't accept for a while. (checks - no breathing, checks - no stomach movement, checks - no heartbeat), & i still hurriedly called for the ambulance in a nervous tone, meanwhile going berserk trying to get ready & bringing my bag with me to the hospital (althou' she seemed dead).

Thru' rescuing from paramedics, it was to no avail. They said she was gone half an hour before they arrived. So, so very depressed. At the same time, ah gong had a shock. (He dropped the house phone he held several times after dropping & picking up during talking on the phone, later he told me he felt giddy & murmured in a slow motion stuttered way) I was so glad that the paramedics was still around at that time or I would be in a big lost. I was so worried that something would happen to the other beloved.

I kept repeating while crying...'an1 zua4 eh3 an1 ni1 kuan4',.......'an zua eh an ni kuan'.....(why like that?...how come like that?)

Few minutes later, I had to gradually accept the cruel truth. The cycle of nature in the world that brings birth, aged, sickness & death...

She left me without a word, without bidding goodbye...

Perhaps she knew she couldn't make it...perhaps she insisted on sleeping in the living room to wait for me.

That monday night, ah ma requested ah gong to feed her for the first time in their 30-40 years together.

She probably passed away by my side for i could be the first one she will see when she leaves.

It was terribly unbelievable for me to accept the fact, b'cos it was too sudden...

All too sudden for a healthy person to suddenly fall sick in a week or 2, then just go like this. Leaving me & ah gong in our solemn lonely world. I would never have the courage to continue my path if hubby & ah gong isn't there for me...I stay strong for the dead & alive...

I blamed & felt guilty at times for not being the one to save her, when i was all along with her. perhaps it is all destined

(like what ah gong said: There's a time for birth & a date for death.)
(dear's words of comfort: We might probably not be able to save her even if she was in the hospital)

I blamed & felt guilty for not waking her...

I blamed & felt guilty for falling asleep myself...

I blamed & felt guilty for not bringing her to the hospital again...

I blamed & felt guilty for not treating her with ultimate politeness & worry-free life before her death...

I blamed doctors & hospital for recklessness of responding lightly or carelessly in the attendance to her critical health with no good follow-ups.

I felt regret for not talking more to her before her death...(although we really talked much & stayed together....it will never never be enough for me...& never ever again will i be granted the chance)

I felt regret for not speaking to her in a better way...

I felt regret for not being more conscious of her sick sufferings...

I felt regret for not patching up with my mum before her death...(at least i did so after these few years...but y after the death...)

I felt regret thinking she was in dreams when she might probably be painful in her sleep...

I'm grateful for these 6 months stay with her again...after a decade of stay over at bf's house.

It's so hard for me to forget everything & especially her...

I miss her so much I wish time would just turned back...I would be different..(but it's never)

I miss ah ma's voice...

I miss ah ma's nag...

I miss ah ma's cooking...

I miss ah ma's existence...

I miss ah ma watching Hokkien opera with me...

I miss ah ma's smile...

I miss ah ma...

Ah ma....I miss my last journey with you...
I miss my time with you...I miss hugging you...

I have lost my words...like how I lost this beloved kin...

I never knew you would leave me, b'cos you are always by my side.
You left me too soon...too sudden...

You left me with yours & my beloved who felt much painful & lonely after you left. We are filled with emptiness on our own, in a quiet big house especially bought for you..

Now, I know what to treasure in life...(time & kinship only matters...)
Materials or possession & all are secondary...

Dear dear & gong gong are now my most precious...no other priorities above...

Her last photo taken when ah ma was alive, 08 Feb 2008, 10:47 pm Lunar new year.

You are always & forever beautiful...In my & our heart & in my & our memories...

You even died so beautifully...

You even have bones in pinkish.

my kind & mighty ah ma...I love you & I miss you.

Few years back...the pre 70 years old b'day celebration u ever had, the happiest & only one you ever celebrated... (Y can't I have another with you...?)

At least you witnessed my marriage...you stayed in my house...you cooked for me...all before you leave me...

My next celebration with you on your coming b'day next year, u must reincarnate to a better life...

I still want to be your grand-daughter & ah girl for many cycles of lifetime...

Can I not blog?

2008-07-23T17:26:00.002+08:00

Lately...I'm permutated with tots of not blogging again. I'm beginning to write some of my exciting & happy happenings in a secret blog all for my fantasy, to keep tracks of lovely & memorable events...

I've got another blog to pour my distress as well...so this one is neutral & public..

...Like covering my public opinions & thoughts reflection.

Hmm...I'm intending to cut down on blogging, perhaps to once a month? Oh, I'm just thinking..?

Errmm..ppl usually say: I don't wanna be a showoff on my blog, where the next moments they'll be posting blissful pictures of lavish dinings or luxury livings. (Is actually a little showoff itself) This...if any, is gonna be kept at a secret blog - undisclosed.

Personal blog are blogs where ppl prove their lifestyles, their splurge or so..
Lately I know some friends in the rare group of rich splendour but the NOT proud or arrogant gang. Totally my idols!

Seen so many rich, poor, male or female, yet really really seldom come across ppl who bears not a tad bit of proudness or snobbishness despite being heavy spenders... U know what...some ppl with a little bit of money to spend or wine & dine in high class places tells the world abt their lives...or TALK LOUD!

But hell no...this is totally a success as a person in life. Success is not measure by the value of money, whereas persona wise...? however..., human's flaw still lies, thus holdings certain pitfalls in life too...

Many a times when ppl said something u're sure it's incorrect or truth-mixup, are u always there to perform the corrections or prove that u know more? Well, to withhold such anxious demonstration is yet another virtue many normal couldn't achieve, what's more for ppl a little well-off.

I was so super impress by this group of rare friends, which becomes my motivation to become a successful person irregardless of our wealth status. To keep quiet thou' u enjoy the best out of everything, to spend for your own 'shiokness' or happiness but never permitting it to fall into 'haolianness'...

I'm glad to find such ppl existence...Hmm...people with no airs...

还爱着你心中曾经那朵红玫瑰吗？

2008-07-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

Drafted 16th June, 11.35pm

曾经，

是否有一朵这样的红玫瑰在你心中绽放。

曾经，

是否有一个美丽的名字成为你夜夜梦中的呓语。

曾经，

是否有一份深深的爱让你大喊：“为了你，抛弃天下又何妨？”

也是曾经，

愚蠢的丘比特、糊涂的月老只将心动给了其中的一个。

也是曾经，

三个字：“我爱你！”换来的却是四个字：“我不爱你！”

也是曾经，

承受爱一个人的痛苦却始终得不到被一个人爱的幸福。

…………

有这样一个故事（本故事纯属虚构，如有雷同，纯属巧合，请不要对号入座）：

男孩在见到女孩的第一面的时候就发觉自己爱上了她，
这绝对不是一见钟情的爱。
单相思是很苦的，男孩很聪明，他决定告诉她，告诉她自己的想法。
男孩知道有可能得到的是拒绝，但是至少也许可以作为一段美丽爱情的开端……
认识的过程很平常，很普通，却很惬意，不过在深夜电话中聊天真的可以拉近心与心的距离吗？

爱情，很容易让人冲昏头脑，对，的确是这样的……
表白，意外的被接受了，是该高兴吗？

时间，带来了失败的开端。美丽的爱情宣言变成了愚人节的玩笑…………
直到男孩清醒之后，才发现了这残酷的事实……
接着来的，自然是厌烦与拒绝，伤心与痛苦……

“这就是所谓的没有缘分！”
女孩这样说。

“爱一个人不需要任何理由，同样，不爱一个人也是……”
女孩还这样说。

“我只知道我会永远永远的这样爱你，永远永远的为你守侯……”
男孩这样回答。
…………

故事没有结束……
男孩这样说也这样做，只希望能够用自己的付出去打动一颗不属于自己的心。
还有什么叫痴情吗？

女孩的每个举动、每个变化都会牵动男孩的心。
还有什么叫迷恋吗？
梦中的呓语、酒醉的低吟，都离不开女孩的名字。
还有什么叫疯狂吗？

感动！
男孩得到了女孩的感动！
还有歉疚！
男孩永远无法得到女孩的爱。

丘比特的恶作剧？月老的童心？
制造了两个人这样的关系。

男孩完全不计较回报的付出、
不计较目的的爱永远都只能得到感动和歉疚。
“如果你给我一个机会，你会知道我对你的爱有多深。”
“好，我可以做你女朋友，但我却不能做到爱你。”
“如果你能爱我，我可以用我的一切去换。”
“你知道这是……不可能的……”

女孩哭了，男孩想哭，却忍住了，他知道了自己该做什么。
让自己心爱的人伤心，比让自己伤心要更痛苦十倍。
爱一个人，无论用什么方法都要让她幸福，让她快乐。

第二天，男孩变了……
没有了以往的痴情，没有了以往的眷念，也没有了以往的疯狂。
男孩以后再也没有去找过女孩，甚至再也没有说过一句话……
仿佛这段故事就随着太阳的升起而结束……
…………

故事还是没有结束……
v有人说，时间能冲淡一切，但也有人说，时间能证明一切。

三年后，
当男孩和女孩即将结束学业，各奔前程的时候，
当男孩和女孩分离后也许再也不能相见的时候，
当女孩仿佛想到做点什么的时候，突然听到男孩进了医院的消息。
“为了救一个小孩，被汽车撞了，还没有度过危险期……”医生如是说。
女孩哀求着想要见他，医生不同意。

“那求你转告他让他一定要坚强地活下来，
因为我……我发现我非常的爱他……”
医生在昏迷不醒的男孩耳边如实说了这句话。
医生仿佛看到男孩皱紧的眉头微微地松开了，嘴角泛起一丝笑意……
但是不幸，第二天早上，随着太阳的升起，
一个灵魂同时离开了它的躯体开始飞升……

女孩又哭了，男孩没有哭，临死的时候，嘴角泛着微微的笑容。
在墓碑前，女孩仿佛听到男孩的声音：
“我希望能永远看到你快乐幸福的笑脸……”

此后，女孩一直快乐坚强地生活，再也没有伤心过。
也许在别人看来，故事的结局未免不太完美，并不圆满，
但是不正如男孩所希望的，女孩得到了幸福与快乐。
也许曾经你的生命中也深爱着这样一个人，
由于种种原因，你们却永远无法在一起，
你怎么面对的呢？

不过，请记住：
爱一个人，
无论用什么方法都要让她幸福，让她快乐。
即使，要你选择放弃。
　
恭喜你，你收到了来自你朋友的这样一份祝福，你是幸福的人。请你继续将本页面转发下去，给更多的人带来幸福，带来快乐。传递给5个人，你就会发现你的人际关系变化了。谢谢。

0-4 人: 给别人带来快乐的人是最快乐的。
5-9 人: 给你带来快乐的人即将出现。
9-14 人: 马上就会有幸福的暗示了。
15 人以上:你的梦想终会成真。

A page send from a friend

-Shawn.

I was molested several times by 7 men in life.

2008-07-20T01:50:00.001+08:00

Drafted 23 June, 1:50pm

Relating to Just Jean on her recent molest case, I can only say man is always a man, only with some diguised behind an invisible mask, while others truly gentlemanly with bundled colorful tails. With Jean being a victim, I read how unsympathatic remarks were made towards her:

"Seeing how desperate she is for a rich boyfriend, she probably seduced this "John" with the hope of landing a golden goose. Cry wolf when things didn't go her way. WTF she gotta be dumb.

At least John did not force it and eventually apologised to her when he realised she did not want "it".

She probably thought her CB made of gold. Good riddance."

What happened is her full story like this.

Molested by what she reckoned to be a nice, approachable guy friend when in Korea sharing the same bed spending 4 nights together, he actually sexually offended her on their 4th night.

Digging further into her story: The guy friend woo her for 2 years & parted $48,000 loan for her studies or car purchasing (rumoured both).

He initiated a hug she agreed and continue as friend with a later journey together in Korea, leading to the molest of what most accused or assumed to be a luring sex trap.

She later returned to Singapore telling her friends via MSN about the molest, while the man decided to sue her against defamation and demanding back the $48k he loaned her.

Other's view:

* Some People penalize her for seducing him and tagged her as a slut or whore.

* Some pity, sympathize her plight & morally supported her.

My view:

* I don't think trading $48,000 would mean an obedience sexual touch on the skin. The girl is not obliged to do so, she was accidentally forced (in the hotel).

* Any modesty outrage invaded is a legal offence in any country.

* She was probably surprise-fright and intimidated for she can be raped the next moment.

* However, we couldn't justified anything on this case as John shoot the arrow back at her.

* It became a black turn white, & white becomes black kinda situation; since the guy had pushed back the blame and shrug it off as the hug Jean (Amy) initally agreed him.

* News & forums' comments semi-confuse me into her real intention yet she is indeed victimised. I saw her image in the water like this case, couldn't see clearly what's right or wrong.

* Not many answer her call for help instead labelling her deservings. Tofu gobbled and men name it chicken pea, is the world so modernised???!!!

Too much mix feelings went through me when I saw her plight. It refreshes some dirty memories buried in my heart where only close friends knew.

I'm not too sure if any other girls were molested when they were young, or whether it is actually common or not to go through at least once in our lifetime.

I'm lucky to grow up mentally sound despite those despicable shadow.

Some friends knew about 1 or 2 of my molest case. But I've been keeping mum for the past 20 over years.

I was molested since I was very young before I even reached puberty & thru' the different stages of life till my early sec. I really wouldn't want to go into details about the past molest case at this point of time. It was dated times back. I never dare to tell any of my family members or report to the police, I only know how to keep it to myself.

I would describe it as embarrassed, shamed, lost, worried and scared.
* Worried what might happened if such were reported to the police.
* Was too stunned back then after each incident.
* Embarrassed to tell my family as we never share such topic, dunno how to put words into mouth.

Therefore I knew most girls who were molested must have felt like me, unless firstly encouraged by friends or teachers, as friends would be the first we'd confide in.

If I were to write a post of molest case each, I guess I can spread mine over a week of 7 molest cases each featuring a different men, some whose still boys back then.

I still remembered clearly each of those incidents, where and how it took place, where some of them used to stay, who they are, some family's friend's son, family's friend, some bastard whom I knew, some friend's bro and even some stranger.

This is definitely not something glorious to speak about, probably a person's rep might be even put down. Even if I dun uncover such truth today, I will still do so sometime after cos' I want to share all of the geuine roller coaster life encounter. All those unlucky/bad encounters that many ppl might never have the chance to try. Hence, I was already very reserved as I knew this is public. Nonetheless, I am just a minor on this planet.

It was very upsetting histories that could never be erased. Life goes go & those people who molested got away scott-free, except one who was punched like a pig-head on his birthday by my ex. It was never a fair society, especially preying for young underage girls who had no rational and was naive and pure.

It took me some courage to write this little piece of thing, even to publish it after hesitating few days to firm this post. So, when openly opening up means opening up gracefully, I shouldn't be shamed at the expense of others' fault, neither should it be tag as a dirty linen. The 7 days story might probably never be published. I probably couldn't face any insult or unbearable remarks for sharing the story.

Becos':

MAN's shoe is always different from...

...a WOMAN's heel.

Dedication to the man I love

2008-07-19T00:15:00.001+08:00

Drafted on 26 June, 4.34am

Dearest Dear,

Today ain't any special day at all. It's past anniversary & way pre-birthday.

This ain't going to be a romantic lovey dovey mushy letter; yet it translate pouring fullness of my inner thoughts.

Just even on a pretty normal day in midst intersection of dark & dawn, after 9 years 3 months 11 days 7 hours & 14 mins; I'm still so crazily in love with you.

I am so bless that you pretty much felt the same & sacrificing tediously for my sake.

I am always the lovely weapon that hook you back and go haywire to you, my warrior knight on the frontier. Nonetheless, no hesitation & complaint intrude your love for it.

My inspiration to pen this sudden thoughts is just that I really miss you at times; perhaps when I need you most by my side.

Career is perking and I do not wish to splash cold water and wet slippery your stable feet, so don't worry about me & work just as you do now.

You are always there when I need you the most, I guess I can no longer find a better man; who...

* Bath me and care me when I had a month-long chicken pox.
* Lost & Frantically rush for me when I was robbed.
* Hug me tightly to sleep & pray with me when I'm afraid.
* Long hours of breathless accompanying & encouragement when I was down.
* Bring me different sorts of self-creation tasty cakes for my annual hatchday.
* Give a thought to each carefully words selection for the sensitive me.
* Always staying put with my forgetfulness, carelessness, & non-mindfulness.
* Did not held it against me when insurance was burnt even if liable to collect the insured sum.

The above sentence might sound like you're very caring towards me. But I guess only you and I know our hard-to-hard temper. It does not shows how deserving I am or the hardship we went thou' cos' it's not here to prove. It's sufficient to be kept for you can sense it more than anyone.

Which in fact, you are an extreme male chauvinist, although loving me very much.

You are NOT...

* very romantic
* full of surprises
* equilibrium with my standview

with acquiring sensitive quick temper.

yet you are churning my heart with your constantly improving change & forgiving attitude towards the stubborn, immature, super hot-tempered, careless & not-so-up to expectation letting down ME'!

But I can never thank you enough for your unconditional love.

Because no one is flawless, I'm loving you including accepting your flaw.
(Cannot love a perfect person, but instead loving an imperfect person perfectly is what we are actually implying)

I'm really glad I survived pass 2007. So 2008 should be chicken feet if nothing further crops up.

I love you dear!

When total darkness fall, you're my chronicle candle;
when sea boat capsize, you're my life-saving jacket;
when cruel tonardo swept, you're my hanging pillar;
when devil crept in, you're my legendary inspiration;
when danger befall; your magic spell illusioned my invisibility!

- Girl to dear :p

(Literary Works Copyright)

This post so reminds me of a post I wrote in between our angry quarrel & cooling period on da' same day. Which describe the bitterness in the inital sentences to the emotional thoughts at the bottom poem.

Only what different is... I'm fondly thinking & missing you now.

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This post ends here.

You know who this is for...actually it's meant to be kept...he has already seen it...but I promises to publish all drafts, didn't i?

My glads & regrets

2008-07-18T00:28:00.004+08:00

Drafted on 27 June, 1.28pm

How shall we talk about life?

A something that everyones tumbles through old age.

How many regrets and wrong path we took on a forwarding rocky road with no U-turn sign?

The glads turn into wonderful memories that can never replay the same as the oldies black tape.

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The post ends here.

This post is rather short, cos my pen drawn deeply into my faculty of thinking. I shall continue from here...

Many a times, we graze through pending regrets of unamended momentums. I have had many of such times so often...

I'll go with regrets first...

1) Not treasuring Pennies...
...When I used to make a lot of money, I regret not treasuring each penny, but spending hard. I spend on so many things because money comes to me pretty effortless...
...& now that I'm in a little deep shit, I just once again re-acknowledge how lovely, cute & beautiful money is. (Perhaps it's a punishment for negligence to re-alight my fault)

2) My tattoo...
...The first time I had it on me was on at age 15. Cheap ink prints at 90 bucks on my back...? who would have known an easily covered-up area would turn to become a big blemish on a bride's halter or tube gown. Luckily my long hair has always hidden it well...(I went through sufferings of pain to laser-rid it 20 over times, it was still to no avail...,tattooing comes cheap & painless...while lasering brings pricey pains)

3) Not completing my studies...
...Should I put it as I pick the wrong course, or I failed to...Alright I chose CIM, & just completing one cert & given all up cos I find it pretty hard, especially for a non-working adults in my years 19 at that time...no confidence to complete 2 more certs before jumping to master degree...

I got another choice at that time...to go straight into 2nd year of completing bachel0r degree with my diploma in BA...bah..2 more years to get hold of tat piece of degree. Well..cos I think getting another higher qualification is none as crucial as making money at that point of time, anyway there's no limitation of age to studying...but looking back...to going thru' it once more for the need to use it at some moments...just *sigh...

4) Bad financial classification...
...Like I said we spend $ wrongly all the times, be it business or social...Planning on finances was never our specialty. But it definitely has to be one...as it is the most important one..To start all over again - simply means REGRETS..

My glads now... =D

1) I got the right man...
Remember everytime people said: 男怕入错行, 女怕嫁错郎! (The man fear of entering the wrong profession, the woman fear of marrying the wrong husband!)
...Need I spell further?

2) Comprehended life...
My roller coaster life brings me into the new light of life, I begin to comprehend life in this world...

3) ...I don't really wanna mention too much, I've gain... & lost...I'm worried that things here will no longer be around....

Sorry...Notice

2008-07-17T13:33:00.000+08:00

I know I've been lacking of substantial gd post...

I'm busy after settling all the office stuff ending the 2 yrs contract & clearing so many many items at the 1700 sq ft office warehouse.

Got so many dues to keep in checks every now & then...

So many things to settle back at job...

So many gd photos to upload...

So many lovely food & gd restaurant for intro...

So many many things to say & write it down...So many even thou' this blog is just 3 months old ~ it is already taking up a whooping space of 125 posts...Wow! Congrats ah~

I need time ya'...

Tomorrow & the day after, & another day after (Fri, Sat, Sun) I'll be posting up my drafts...yes...drafts are not finished yet... (with the next 3 days draft-post depicting the most important among all)

Stay tuned...

和尚与屠夫 Monk & Butcher

2008-07-16T01:06:00.001+08:00

One of my customer sms me this which I find quite interesting...

从前有一个和尚和一个屠夫是好朋友。和尚天天早上要起来念经, 而屠夫天天早上要起来杀猪。为了不耽误他们各自的工作, 于是他们约定互相叫对方起床。

多年以后...

和尚和屠夫相继逝世. 屠夫去了天堂, 而和尚却下了地狱。

为什么?

因为屠夫天天做善事, 叫和尚起来念经。

而和尚天天叫屠夫起来杀生!

这故事告诉我们什么?...

不要叫人家起床杀生! 哈!

(我: 哎呀! 这故事又让我想起了一个人啊!)

Once, a monk & a butcher were good friends. Every morning the monk wakes up to chant Buddhist scriptures, while the butcher kill pigs. In order to not delay their respective task, thereupon they make mutual promises to wake their counterparts.

Many years later...

The monk & the butcher pass away in succession. The butcher goes to heaven, however the monk go down to hell!

Why?

Because everyday the butcher is doing charity work, waking the monk to chant prayers.

Yet the monk wakes the butcher up to kill life daily!

What does this tale tells us?...

Not to wake people up from their bed to kill life! Ha!

(Me: My God! This narrative reminds me of someone again ah!)

Charity Organization Breaks Confidence

2008-07-15T18:31:00.000+08:00

First the big hoo-ha abt NKF (National Kidney Foundation), next is the other largest charity Ren Ci hospital, Venerable Ming Yi who accumulate people's belief in his charitable & brave act for charity donations are shattering the images of pure donation once again.

Behind the scenes are all cheats, loans, lies and breaching all trust placed upon. Now Ren Ci lost rights in granting tax exemptions for donors.

5 months ago, when the news published the processing of Commercial Affairs checks on several organization including Ren Ci, I expected this would happen too, just that after the NKF incident - I also begin to lose trust in certain organization as well.

Imagine these 2 cases are not involving amounts of $10,000 or $100,000 but several millions. $x,000,000.00, donated by kind-hearted saviours.

That was why initially I had difficulty choosing the right organization to donate as well. Guess donors wouldn't have a choice...

So in the end I selected thye hua kwan moral society. Reason being there several homes in Singapore, several disabled-equipped vans with dedicated staffs (seen by my own eyes), & best of all the unopened public commercialized exposure for donations. And that sum's up my consensus mind...

Maybe if there are more of such cases again, it's gonna be a 50-50 'tug-a-war' mind for considering donations...

Thankfully there are regular checks & probes conducted to suppress such accounts, at least donors feel appease with that.

What do you think?

Getting used to my short fringe

2008-07-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

Drafted on 30th June, 1:31am

Eh? Another post again? So soon! Cos I suddenly recall to post my pic b4 I freaking shock my friends with "years' once" seldom-seen short fringe.

I've been contemplating to cut my fringe short for quite some time. Cos everyone is colouring brown & red & growing duper long hair & wearing contact lense & all these, & I'm suddenly bored by stuff like tat.

So, I decided to shortened my fringe, dye an almost black but deep brown colour, and cut away nasty frizz, but upset with the hairdresser "chopping" away my waist length hair to half length :c.

I'm also gonna ditch coloured lenses for some time cos I suddenly feel that amongst too many pairs of bewildering coloured-lense eyes, the beauty of original ethnic asian eyes becomes predominated to me, & I simply love the wholly clean honey eye look instead of those flowery colour edges.

Reflections of my current hairstyle (I felt I look):
* Sweeter
* Younger
* Simpler
* Purer
* In short, the girl next door look la'!
* Smaller face hidding my baby fats marvellously
* Astounding jap look in real life (after make-up)

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Oh well, actually cos' I hesitated in posting the pic with short fringe, cos it's so not like me, so 'gkin-na', & I'm so desperately waiting for it to grow long. I really wouldn't cut it short again cos I dun think it suits me. So -> this also means I'll never cut my hair short too cos I'm so afraid of regrets...

Revive My Blog Post!!!

2008-07-13T20:00:00.002+08:00

I am a free woman

2008-07-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

Drafted 4th July, 5:19pm

Yes. Today a huge load or rather; burdens of failure was removed. The failure from my biz, i mentioned some times ago.

Zzsk........I bought the stock & import in solely by me, so sad it's all gonna send away by my both hands as well. Losses made, lessons learnt. It was all too precious thru' the 2 yrs ordeal.

What it takes to be a successful entrepreneur, I guess ultimately u need a tad bit of luck + decisiveness, good planning, ingredients of tonnes of money on good foresighted investments or tough batches of experiences + good networking, never-say-die attitude mix with straightforward bull power & tortoise winning game. (plan, prepare, discuss, survey, plan, sampling, testing, plan and discuss...look forward & never turn back)

I failed...I hope I learn hard from what I failed & pick up some wisdom subjects. Thou' not terribly, i begin to realize how lovely & precious each penny is worth for an introductory biz. Having spent loads of money on a big & beautiful office fully alarmed, cctv, beautified & complete yet not doubling or tripling the principle in 24 months, or simply not breaking even its cost is a burst to the chest.

If u ever knew you'd strike a lottery or inherit some money, & you're planning on not squandering it but investing in a business, you've got ready cash and you know you'll be able to cover d' intended expenses u gonna incurred, would u fork out for what you would be able to afford & fit into a lovely office? Ultimately who knows? Who knows one day the polar zone turns hot?

No, was the firm answer & reason. Offsetting the liability of an office requires good sales work. No sales + good office = die. The same goes with restaurants and retail front. Beautiful shop or beautiful ambience, no customers! Then what's the point?

Haizz..never too late then never, sometimes I wondered why I've seen so much troubles, and met so much problems, which had never ocurred or unexpectedly occurred. I wish I could just freely express them on my blog, so sad to be a haste to keeping secrets I wish to divulge in emotions. I never smile as much since I turn adulthood.

I'm always like this once in a while or rather too often, so often that my fluctuating mood swing affects other, so often that I can be an actress laughing at this moment, crying the next, or sadness turn anger...

I'm still glad that even if I'm reduced to nothing, I still have good & supportive families.
Life goes on...just that I'm always on the pessimistic sides...
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The post ends here.

Hmm..i take a step back, wanting to hold my venting nag that so often received. Till now, i'm almost done with the shit. My nightmare for so long a time is gonna be lifted soon. I'll be letting off a big heave of all burdens inside me very soon. The arrangements, the movements, the tears of facing this stuff is gonna be thrown off ~ i'm so glad thou' things r not almost back on track entirely, I've learn to lead a life that brings happiness and best of all contentment.

Who can live a life with content i believe is great establishment, and now I can smile proudly & say I'm achieving it deep within my heart & not on the surface.

I grew to:

~ Love my job

~ Love my environment

~ Love my Life

~ Lead happiness truthfully where materials are secondary non-obession

People sudden change....

When u ask em' 100 times to quit certain acts, they accepted with heedlessness;

But only when their red lights start blinking, no value of intrusive is required to get their butts moving.

... ... ...

Red Cliff

2008-07-11T18:43:00.005+08:00

You know holding the butter manju cake will lit up glitters in envy eyes, cos of the long queue.. yeah, I'm pretty busy and lazy to review what I eaten (actually got too many pictures la'), but yesterday I watched a fantastic movie, the red cliff.

The Red Cliff (Chibi in Chinese pronounciation) was based on the history of a true decisive battle in China prior to the period of the Three Kingdoms in China between the allied forces of the southern warlords Liu Bei and Sun Quan, and the numerically superior forces of the northern warlord Cao Cao.

Read more at Wikipedia

There was an earlier movie acted by Andy Lau ~ Three Kingdoms: Resurrection of the Dragon.

Both superstar of the 2 movies (Tony Leung & Andy Lau) were great in their acting skills, their expression especially! The blink or squeeze of the eyes, the frown on the brows, the victory smile or the worriness in their facial expressions is what's worth paying the dollars at the cinema.

While Resurrection of the dragon is heroic & agrressive one man show's fighting, the Red Cliff promises of strategic stride to read opponent's mind and employ strategic formations to attack or defend.

Great show, really!

Real or False

2008-07-11T18:42:00.000+08:00

Drafted 7 June 2008, 2:43pm

1 big lie:

~I've never considered plastic surgery of any kinds before

2 big secrets:

~I'm a half Malaysian-blood breed in Singapore;
~I'm raised without a father, & almost in entirety mother as well

3 big truths:

~I love crowds especially for bbq, b'day or parties

~I hate my step-father, in fact, I'm extremely reluctant to use the word "FATHER" on any one

~I hate eating alone in public, especially in coffeeshop or hawker, I think I catch glimpse of watchful eyes; or maybe I'm paranoid!

4 big favourites:

~

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The post ends here.

Well...I tot I wouldn't like to divulge secrets abt me hence it becomes a draft; but hack-care, since i decided to blog abt my draft ~ it's none's concerned.

My list can just go on & on abt my this & that.

Butter Manju Cakes

2008-07-10T18:33:00.003+08:00

So many thanks to Cody, I managed to mouthed the long-awaited Manju Cakes.
I timed it ~ it was 1 hr 15 mins ;p.

Initally I tot red bean was good; anyway I bought 5 red beans & 5 custards.
Turns out to be the custard that majestically impress.

Not gonna blog long, I'm gonna go for "Mountain durian" (Sua Teng Dew Lian - in Hokkien) ordered by dear at Dempsey, after that gonna catch the preview of "Red Cliff".

Shall blog tomorrow. Gotta many many things on hand right now!

C'iao!

This kind of fucked-up ppl actually exist

2008-07-10T14:56:00.001+08:00

Drafted post on 7/7/08 3.00pm

How much education did your family & school taught, or rather how much life lesson on society have you morally learnt? I believe they dun teach a shit of despising ppl or acting arrogantly or snobbish. So this means any act of 6 gd characters & 7 bad behavioural is picked up from surroundings, ppl & events?

What am I rambling abt?

I seldom speak abt my work. But If I do it'll most probably land in sarcastic or censure remarks.

It's a common trade
~ second-hand mobile telecommunications.

What's so bad about this job?

I wear whatever clothes I fancy to wear

I get my hands on the latest model of pre-owned handphones at times

trying out different models of handphones till I get bored

Talk & Talk & Talk with customers, neighbours, on the phone... ...

Freedom of using lappie serving whatever web i desire throughout the entire free time

I get to sit till my butt crack

I get to daydream loads

..........

......

& the list goes on....

Decent enough? Is it not respectable? In foreign lands like Japan ~ high respects to air stewardess, in England maid ~ highly salaried, even some hookers are proud of their job.

So, who's this shit that actually despise others when others are not despising em'self?

Wonder if he's worth mentioned a role of character in this post?

?????----What happened?

With a woman his (cousin, wife, gf, sister? whatever) & i suppose mother?,

(First few lines of the conversation)

He asked: "Do you have E51?"

I answered: "No."

He jabber away: "Why all phones don't have?"

I: (look at him, clearing my ear & refreshing what he said in a silent moment) look at his "mum" & "sister" before speaking in an irritated voice (obviously there was a silent paused for abt 1-2 mins before my unrequested reply) "This is a second-hand shop, not all models are available. "

Yes. One word from him & I am so angry.

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The post stopped here.

- I hesitated in publishing this draft cos my anger goes off in a zooOOOOOOOM...& I don't feel like mentioning it as afterall it's just a minor jack & REALLY don't wish to divulge anything abt my job lor.

- But since I decided to post my draft unaltered - That's it la'!

Blog is not fast enough to capture feelings.

2008-07-09T19:03:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel hot, at times I feel sad...

It seems the leftover of feeling lingers on..
but anger moments passing swiftly..

So, whenever I write a post, and almost finishing it, I never post, cos I dun feel like posting.

Ended up with many pcs of drafts in my posting, like unpublished photos in the computer albums...

I decided to come clean with what I write, never letting any emotions or surroundings to suppress me..and to publish my drafted post either in its completed/unfinished/at the beginning of the dot stage (natural form); on the following few days with an explaination of why I stopped at it...

It's gonna be interesting, cos it's like demo tapes unrevealed.

Counting it...it's more than 10.
So, my virtual drafts will be ideas transposing into physical post for the next 2 weeks :)

It's building inspiration on inspiration killed.

Undeniably Inhumane - Stop Canada's Cruel Seal Hunt

2008-07-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

Sometime ago, I received this in my email:

How would you like it to be whacked hard over the head as a 'sport'!?

Norway and Canada have a new kind of tourism. Killing baby seals. They call it a 'sport'..

You want to call this a sport ?

Is he a sportsman?

Why?

You're our only hope !!!

This barbarism shouldn’t be possible in our society..

Don’t turn your back on us, we are defenseless

I know these images seem painful for you, but we feel the pain. We are being slaughtered and its going on RIGHT NOW...

What gives him the right to kill us? Who is he to decide about life and death?

What kind of sport is this? I didn’t harm anyone. I was just swimming around..

Please help me and my friends...

You cant just ignore these images.. Keeping silent and doing nothing makes you guilty...

Please help us

Please don’t leave us alone...

STOP THE KILLING OF SEALS You can make a statement by reposting this to get as many people as you canto repost this.

Bring these murderers to the attentionof world leaders. Thank you!!!!

Please continue spreading and posting this link around.

Go Ga-Ga over Food Tour & Hokkaido Fair!!!

2008-07-05T19:17:00.038+08:00

(Note: No edition was done on any of the food photos you are about to see.)

I've been dieting since July 1st.
Yet on:

1st July, I had a sudden sumptuous 'tze cha' feast with my family & there goes my fruity diet;

1 whole guava = 3x's more vitamin C than an orange :)

2nd July, I held no refrain towards Meiji chocolate $1.60

(Bitter Black won't kill diet pig, ain't it?);

3rd July, Durian at Balestier Rd + Laksa with Chin Chow at $3.00 nett at Quality Hotel (WOW! Cheap!) hence Killing my Sushi Diet; Calorie count per sushi rice 30, with stuffing about 40-50 calories :)

4th July, the first day of Hokkaido fair, I spare no thoughts in trying out at least one of the stores after grabbing a $2 double cheeseburger at MacDonalds so I tried this;

Hokkaido Curry Bun

Which in actual fact was presented in the colour below:

Reviews:

Thumbs up: Authentic Jap curry flavor. Simply the jab of Jap food with the very saltish or very sweetish taste; In this case it falls over to the sweet strong curry lingering aroma. The puffing skin is not too thick, it's chewing texture was compatible with the wrap-in amount of curry mixture.

Improvements to be made: It was not piping hot when bought, so it will not shoot your eyes to a blink with the first bite.

Ratings: I would give it a 3/5. For those who wants to try the authentic Jap curry flavor.

5th July, Croquette! If I'm not wrong, there are about 10 flavors. The price ranges btw $1.90 - $3.40

1) Potato
2) Corn
3) Pumpkin
4) Crab cream - $3.40 I wanted to try this but gotta wait so I choose another.
5) Vegetable
6) Curry
7) Onion cream
8) Shrimp cream
9) White curry
10) Cream stew - My choice

Cream stew Croquette

Haha...this is just the frying oil...

This is the one! It's wicked look makes me go hungry...

Reviews:

Thumbs up: Nice! Favourites for children. Thou' the outer skin is not wondrously crispy, the inner creamy fillings compensated for it. Subtle and smooth taste, with bits of vegetable, carrot & corn. Yum Yum.

Improvements to be made: It is not hot, so don't expect startling surprise of first few bites.

Ratings: I would give it a 4/5. Would be best if it is served hot.

Otaru Sweet Potato

The sweet potatoes are all going by weight. I selected the lightest weight (cheapest) one, as it was meant to be a one-man portion. It cost me $6.80. Some others would cost up to $14++

It was still warm...

The sides towards my finger is the real deal!

The 1st layer is soft skin made from the sweet potato. I could taste 1 or 2 small sugar. It's soft but the surface outlook looks a little like the Indian tissue prata.

There are a few layers blended in if you eat in a single scoop, but is actually separated.

The 2nd layer consist of sweetened mashed sweet potato fillings. I believed this portion is sweetened otherwise it will be too bland for a mashed taste.

The 3rd layer is located somewhere in the middle of this pie, and is not spread through the whole middle layer, just a small portion if you manage to taste it. This layer is what I believed to be the creamy egg curd, as I reckon it to be made from egg & milk.

The 4th layer is the original sweet potato unremoved for baking. I especially like this layer as I love the original flavour of sweet potato. A contrast to the 2nd layer yet is made from the same ingredient. Smart creation!

The 5th layer is the last layer of the sweet potato skin. It really goes well with any of the above 4 layers, especially with the original 4th layer of sweet potato. Really really yummy!

The 5th layer sweet potato skin. One of the best part that made up this delight.

Reviews:

Thumbs up: A must try! It is definitely very nice. It's been a long time since I tasted something like this. It definitely taste better than cakes and is on par with cheesecake, oh well for cheesecake lover u should know what i mean. The first mouth makes it irresistible for a second, and the second for more & forth. It's so yummy & sweet, u'll smile eating this!

A sinful worthy dish! Smart creation with layers of layers fully co-exist for one another!

Improvements to be made: As I am having the portion all to myself, the mashed portion might seem a tad bit chunky, especially since it's sweetened. To ensure not overly sick of this layer, lessening just a wee bit of this part is most ideal.

Will definitely goes well with chilled sky-water, but not any other beverages.

Ratings: I would give it a 5/5. Best to share with lovers. Snatching the portion making it seems never enough like sharing a pack of fries is the best best best!!

Some other items sold at Otaru includes:

Sweet potato as mentioned $2.80 per 100g & pudding at $4.20 which I haven't try.

I think this is the rare cheese ? choco tart. Sorry I couldn't make out the words as it was too fuzzy & my eyes was so glued to so many food at one time :p

& this, sweet house roll.

Anytime btw 6th - 13th: I might be sourcing for... ...

perhaps cheesecake 4 pcs @ $9.00 (looks damn yummy!)

...maybe takoyaki 6 pc @ $5.80.

...Shisamo?...sapporo beer...?

mango gelato ice cream @ $4.00

.............................crab @ $80++++++ dollars

& the "SUPERSTAR" item of all, that was on long queue on it's first day, and a total sold-out @ 8.30pm, a freaking 2 hours queue on the 2nd day, arghhhh...so i'm so gonna chase after it "DIE-DIE" on monday.

Featuring the much awaited "SUPERSTAR":

I will definitely get my ~~hands~~ mouth on this!!!

The experience at this Hokkaido fair was somewhat similar to the Penang feast in Goodwood Park Hotel. Experiencing taste of food that is different to what is offered locally. Thou' this is not the 1st Hokkaido fair in Singapore, it is my first time experiencing it, and it made me curious if these stores are actually physical in Hokkaido.

In Sapporo its famous for Ramen, but I've not seen any Ramen store. Perhaps the mall is too packed with crowds that I missed it, or maybe it was not invited to the fair. Hmm...a little disappointed thou'. I don't think it's due to Ajisen's existence there, Mos Burger was there too but croquette is still selling, rite?

Hmm...so much so for my yo-yo diet. Never go on a diet cos' good food will come & taunt you.

;p [Are you hungry?]

I'm damned!

2008-07-04T18:05:00.001+08:00

I just wrote a post which converts into draft. Seems like what I've wrote for the most of last few posts conform into draft works. I don't know why. Not that I don't feel like blogging, just somehow I'm not ready to relate some true feelings to the public. What I wrote is not deservingly enough to belong in d' highly confidentiality profile thrown into my secret blog, but I think "FEAR" describes it.

Fear is the word for scrutinizing minds might be scouring my blog for flashing too much my inner reflections. Anyway, nobody bothers anyway & hey, it's my blog & I do what I want is what most shout! But, somehow I dun feel so lately. I feel more & more as revealing my feeling is like proving or showing others my life.

Damned! I want to blog but I dun want to show. It's contradicting, isn't it?

If only I could desert such feelings and ignore visitors as if its invisible, I'll probably blog till 'HIGH'!

Gosh, somebody teach me!

Should I just blog about food & nothing here, and blog elsewhere secretly about me? Ohhhhwwww................................

I want to read the post xiaxue deleted!!! !!!

2008-07-02T16:39:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone, I'm so inquisitive about the latest post on June 30 that Xiaxue had blogged. I'd like to see what she has written and the seemingly interesting photos she had posted. Any idea of the whole contents any kind soul would tell me? I'd so much like to know abt the facts or fiction that she wrote about Dawn. Yet, all I can only make do is imaginative narration from the freaking 298 comments. *Blame the 'kaypoh' me for not updating myself at the blog. Haizz.

I, myself believed that Dawn Yang really made up a lot of false information to the public instead of the real truth, and is trying hard to prove herself innocence from every tiny point view.

Beauty lies!!! Beauty lies deep within!!!

Anyone out there to correct me? or tell me more abt it?

What did she say?? What did she say????

If you are kind & helpful enough, please email me at: mysharoning@gmail.com.

Thanks in advance!!! !!!

I so regret for missing out this Best Entry!!!!!!

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UPDATES: I've managed to find the whole entry! haha :D

A little bit of everything

2008-07-02T16:14:00.000+08:00

July was a good start thou' July 2nd isn't as well. I woke in the morning to do my skipping exercise at the balcony while in between short breaks I gazed down a few times, finding myself glancing at a few guys playing basketball with one very familiar face & naked body wearing shorts. The laughter & actions further affirmed this person's identity as Mr Steven Lim.

I continued with my skipping, took a bath, and for a start after a good rest for nearly 2 months, I'm ready to start work.

The day was ended with a warming meal with my family at Old Airport Rd Hawker Center. After that, I went to count the pallets of stuff in the office cos' we'll be donating it to the Salvation Army, at the same time shifted some items back home.

There was this selfish gesture of kindness by a stranger I met at the industrial building while I was myself making my way slowly down the slope, this Indian or Bangalore stranger who was supposed to go up the lift to his destination, upon seeing me going down the slope, quickly rushed out of the lift and firmly stop the trolley and hold onto it to roll in a stable slow motion sliding its way down.

I thanked him thou' he tot I couldn't cope with the loads, I had actually taken the capacity that I knew I'm able to handle. Still, such thoughtful and selfish gesture are surely appreciated. Perhaps kindness do begets kindness, like how I usually help out ppl voluntarily. It just made ppl feel good to be of help & others thankful when they needed help. :)

Oh ya' abt my hair:

I've been contemplating to cut my fringe short for quite some time. Cos everyone is colouring brown & red & growing duper long hair & wearing contact lense & all these, & I'm suddenly bored by stuff like tat. So, I decided to shortened my fringe, dye an almost black but deep brown colour, and cut away nasty frizz, but upset with the hairdresser "chopping" away my waist length hair to half length :c.

I'm very satisfied with my shortened hair length, cos it has the healthiest hair ends with no split-ends. Just that I'm saddened with my fringe as it was not what I expected it to be. Never mind, few months later I know it'll look great. Just a fresh look for a change now, perhaps a new hairstyle bless me gd luck ;)

I'm also gonna ditch coloured lenses for some time cos I suddenly feel that amongst too many pairs of bewildering coloured-lense eyes, the beauty of original ethnic asian eyes becomes predominated to me, & I simply love the wholly clean honey eye look instead of those flowery colour edges.

I'm still at work now. Today is pretty much quieter...

I missed Sunday!

2008-06-30T00:50:00.003+08:00

Oh I shouldn't missed sunday, I'm bad! cos I know some friends are tuning in on Sunday for my post. I let you down by sneaking away some time on sunday.

You know since apr 7 my last hairdo has grown long and frizzy and 2 coloured & blah blah blah...

So, after waking up late from a late night sleep at 3 plus am...& after lunching at home I went for a hair colour + cut at a 'lagi cheapo' price for my length, only $100/-. Before rushing home to prepare joining my family for a late father's day treat at Thai Village Sharksfin at Goodwood Park Hotel.

I was engrossed in food & enjoyment accompaniment of my family especially since I seldom see them or spend time with em'. It was definitely a very joyous & great evening, with good food. So happy! :D

Yah...and thanks zelene & ting 4 helping me to pack the never-ending office stuff till late last night.

I'll be turning in early tonite, so a short post it shall be. ;)

I am a red-eyed pretty lash girl for 6 hours

2008-06-28T02:07:00.018+08:00

A bad red eye day...

Sulk...

Sulk with good lash + mascara...

WTF care look? with sulk...

Boring sulk again...

sTupid aCt Cute fACE...

Crying? Innocence: Happened to bypass a sneeze!

Can't see the red eye in tis pic. Great! :)

Cheery pic with red eye. GRrrrr..!

A substantially normal pic. Can't get any better?

Don't really like this pic taken from this angle. So act act!

Trying to take red eye with unsteady hand position. End result ->

Off to go for mala steamboat!!!

...the day is saved by good real lash day. :)
Absolutely love it!

I hate people who waste food!!!

2008-06-26T23:59:00.010+08:00

Probably hate is a strong word to employ, but this sudden post topped the marathon of 3 catchy 'titled' draft in my waiting blog list:

I was molested several times by 7 men in life. (Drafted June 23)

Dedication to the man I love. (Drafted June 25)

My glads & regrets. (Drafted today)

Ok. Why draft? cos' it's either unfinished product drawn from the captivation of my sudden inspiration or either hesitation to publish it for personal reason.

Back again. I simply can't express my frustration on how much I detest people who can't emptied their plates or wasting cooked food. That include strangers or people close to me including my dearest family members. People standing within my circle know me well enough that I blew my top for any food food food to be wasted.

Want to see me venting my anger? Easy! Simply throw away a plate of PROPER freshly cooked food right in front of my eyes and I'll be annoyed. Just probably if u happen to be a stranger, I might keep mum & scold you in my heart.

I wrote freshly cooked because I think that is even worst than unfinished. Because unfinished still means some food is touched on at least.

Talking about this topic, it's jolly well my venting board at any thought of it.

I can go on and on ahead grumbling my discontentment.

I'm not born in a poor family althou' I'm not the average rich. But I'm naturally born as a kind "food-lover" and thus hate "food-waster".

My philosohpy:

We are FORTUNATE to be bless with food poor people couldn't afford

Lousy calculational over-preparation resulting in food wastage = HURT

Skinny to bone ppl in poor countries must be dying for even a bowl of simple rice (TALK ABOUT THE NUMEROUS SUM OF FOOD IN THE GARBAGE!!!!)

Geez...Bah! Some must have argued over such stupid doctrine annoyances. So what if you save food and cry angry and hushing over little food pouring down the drain, surely it can't feed any poor hungry child at that particular moment nor can it be wrap and send oversea as donation?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!

Do you know how bangalore eat? Usually they eat a packet of rice with some curry sauce on it, for some it cost 50 cents. AND IT IS ONLY RICE!

Laugh at me! Laugh hard if you want! Cos laughing at this will make you a bad person. Even if splendid rich, we still have to appreciate our resources. Ha, but u think I'm comparing ppl with a Bangalore? N O! It's just a view that we still have good food on the platter.

I pity ppl who ordered too much food and never able to finish it with the intention of only quantifying dishes on the laid table. I do complain a lot in life, and wasting food is one most mentioned snaring factors to seize my temper.

If I didn't know you that well, I might be shy or humble to approach the food cleaning habit. If u r my close friend, close colleague, lover, or family, u sure know why I always gobble up the last bit of the unfinished food on your plate or table.

I don't feel at all it is a laughing stock to be keeping such cynical philo. So what if ppl laugh at me even if they know the truth.

I AM THE SORT WHO WILL 'DA BAO' (takeaway) leftover food for supper or next day brunch or dinner.

WHO CARES? WHAT ISSUE?

I dun fcuking care if this is a so-called auntie's action.

I'm standing by my old-fashioned habits. Something even I couldn't force to change even if trying for a mere bit.

SO, I AM SO PISSED AT PEOPLE THROWING AWAY FOOD!!!!!!

Like sometimes, I just couldn't understand why people can't finish this or that, it will left me wondering. Gosh, it's not that I dun have a golden taste or preferences or stuck-up taste bud. I dig good food, but still I hate I hate I hate wasting food.

I'm angry, so I just want to express it all in this 20 mins. Let me unleash my anger on the blog.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Talking about high class? Small stomach?

I've been to expensive restaurants to dine with millionaires. I've also secretly cursed on the unfinished food to be cleared. Too bad there's too many ppl ard, otherwise I'll still jolly well 'da bao' the food. High class as it is, they still allow takeaways, dun they?

Small stomach for ladies? or even some men? Why dun ya' just share food with others or order a smaller portion on the menu or request for a smaller portion to be done. What's so difficult? Hmm...there's already 3 alternatives to it.

At times, I really hate to be the "Food-Vacuum". I don't really like to be plump. Please clean food you ordered or cooked.

I only think of savouring food or saving food, not shaving away food???

PLEASE DON'T WASTE FOOD!

Wonders of Photoshop

2008-06-26T16:32:00.002+08:00

From " " to "weeeeedwilllllll"

Rugged man transformed into women.

Interesting net finds =) ha

Light Crisp Oyster Sauce Green Veg Recipe

2008-06-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

Whipping up a delectable dish of tasty fresh green has never been easier.

Main Ingredient:

1 bag of Green Veg or Organic Veg
1/4 to 1/2 tablespoon of garlic (own preference)
3 tablespoon of oyster sauce
1/2 glass of water for sauce
A wok of water for cooking veg
1 tablespoon corn or olive oil
1/2 teaspoon salt

Preparation

Cut & Wash Vegetables
Prepare a wok of Boiling Water

Preparing Vegetables

Step 1: Cook vegetables in wok for approximately 1-2 mins to retain crisp freshness.

Step 2: Haul vegetable into a basket with holes to drain water. Then, place the vegetable in a plate or bowl and leave aside.

Preparing Sauce

Step 3: Throw away water from wok or use it to water plant :D, and heat the empty wok.

Step 4: Pour in the cooking oil and heat

Step 5: Throw in garlic & fry till fragrance.

Step 6: Add in oyster sauce and fry the mixture.

Step 7: Add in water & gently stir.

Step 8: Add in salt (and ajinomoto if you prefer)

Step 9: Taste & wait for boiling.

Step 10: Pour sauce over vegetable.

Another green dish to be served.

Deep fried fish & Potato-Minced meat

2008-06-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

Deli' Home-cook fried fish

*Succulent hidden fatty oil beneath d' crispy tone!

A "fish-bone killer"!

Yummy Potato w/ Flavored Minced Meat

*Suck thumb with soft-texturize melt-in-the-mouth farm potato & mild-saltish gravy.

Ingredient player:

Hungry? :p

Some-thing (facts?) about me

2008-06-25T00:47:00.001+08:00

You Are The High Priestess

You represent mystery - secrets that are yet to be revealed.
You find yourself sitting between two worlds: one dark, one light.
You tend to hold these two worlds in balance, reconciling the two.
Open and welcoming, you invite others to learn your secrets.

Your fortune:
Something hidden, or latent, in your life is about to come forward.
You need to pay more attention to your dreams, thoughts, intuition, and imagination.
And if that involves tapping into your dark side, it will all balance out in the end.
You have a lot of potential dying to be unleashed, so let those gates open!

What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are An Introvert!

You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time.
You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room.
While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend.
And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses.
You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends.

Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

You Are 24% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

Your Job Satisfaction Level: 56%

Your job is about average. There are some parts you really enjoy, and some parts that stress you out.
It's possible that you need a small change. Maybe you should switch companies or positions.
It's also possible that you're simply burned out. No job is perfect, even a great one.
Give yourself a personal day to think about your career goals - and if your current job is helping you achieve them.

Should You Get a New Job?

You Are 59% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows.
You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately.
If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important.
You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.

Are You Burned Out?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor.
You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader.
Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways.
But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical.
With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you
In love: You are picky but passionate
To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What's Your Dosha?

Your Stress Level is: 57%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard.
When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems.
But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

How Stressed Are You?

You Make a Great First Impression

You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones.
Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly.
Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to.
Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic.
You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you.
Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression.

What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?

Your Relationship is Still Building Strength

You're relationship is fairly strong, but you're still working on making things solid.
Make sure you're both treating each other with kindness and respect, even when things aren't going well.

How Strong Is Your Relationship With Your Guy?

You Are 54% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved.
But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

How Selfish Are You?

You Are 28% Weirdo

You're a little weird, but you'd be even weirder if you didn't have a few quirks.
You are just strange enough to know it, but nobody else seems to notice your weirdness.
That's because, deep down, everyone is a little freaky!

Are You A Weirdo?

You Are a Question Mark

You seek knowledge and insight in every form possible. You love learning.
And while you know a lot, you don't act like a know it all. You're open to learning you're wrong.
You ask a lot of questions, collect a lot of data, and always dig deep to find out more.
You're naturally curious and inquisitive. You jump to ask a question when the opportunity arises.
Your friends see you as interesting, insightful, and thought provoking.
(But they're not always up for the intense inquisitions that you love!)
You excel in: Higher education
You get along best with: The Comma

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

You Will Die at Age 73

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...
And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Your Blogging Type is Kind and Harmonious

You're an approachable blogger who tends to have many online friends.
People new to your blogging circle know they can count on you for support.
You tend to mediate fighting and drama. You set a cooperative tone.
You have a great eye for design - and your blog tends to be the best looking on the block!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

You Are Fairly Normal

You scored 55% normal on this quiz
Like most people you are normal in some ways...
But you aren't a completely normal person. You're a little weird too!

Why You Are Normal:
If you had to, you rather live without music and still have laughter
If given the choice, you would choose to have more money over more time
You prefer fiction to non fiction
You prefer ruffled potato chips
You would rather be pale than tan

Why You Aren't Normal:
You find the Chicken Dance to be the more embarrassing dance
You prefer the moon to the sun
You know a little about many subjects
You don't keep up with your horoscope
You eat the cupcake first

What's Normal About You... And What's Not?

You Should Honeymoon in Europe!

You are a traditional romantic at heart...
With a taste for fine wine, museums and beautiful walks.
You and your sweetie should get romantic in a cafe in Paris
Or get a Eurail pass - and see as many cities as possible!
Suggested destinations: Paris, Venice, London, Greece

Where Would Your Dream Guy Take You on Your Honeymoon?

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

How's Your Karma?

You Should Try Ice Climbing

Cold, challenging, and downright scary
And there's no way the snow is breaking your fall

What Extreme Sport Should You Try?

You Are Beer!

You don't need to get totally wasted when you hit the bars.
More of a social drinker, you just like to have fun with your friends.
And as long as the beer keeps flowing, you're a happy camper.
But don't mix things up: "Beer Before Liquor, Never Been Sicker!"

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well.
But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right
You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating.
You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky When It Comes To Men?

You Are an Afternoon Person

You can find energy any time of the day ... or night!
You prefer to be out and about when most other people are.
Very early mornings or very late nights aren't really your thing.
You're practically solar powered, and the afternoon is when do best.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

You Are Cheesecake

Rich, sweet, and simply perfect.
You're not boring - you're just the best!

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

Your Worry Factor is 89%

You worry way too much. It's practically ruining your life.
If there's anything bad that could possibly happen, you've worried about it.
Chill out a little, and realize that life is pretty great as is.
Sure, things may go wrong. But if they do, you will be able to deal with them.

Do You Worry Too Much?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

The PJ's You Are Most Like: Comfortable PJ's

You're a bit conservative, traditional, and tend to follow conventions
You have an understated, easy sexiness that men love
People instantly find comfort in you, and you're a "best friend" to many.

What Kind of PJ's Girl Are You?

Your Cell Phone Etiquette is 56% Bad, 44% Good

Your cell phone manners are simply okay. Sometimes you can be very considerate.
But when you are in the middle of an important conversation, all rules go out the window!

How's Your Cell Phone Etiquette?

Your Depression Level: 60%

You seem to have mild depression.
A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment.
If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

Are You Depressed?

Girls Saturday mood

2008-06-23T09:44:00.000+08:00

Haha..one-sided mascara if u notice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TING!!!!!!!!

2008-06-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

Before the clock struck 12, no matter how lazy I am, gotta blog this post with lightning speed.

First, I would like to wish ting a very happy b'day again.

Wish u be blessed with abundant luck, and infinite happiness!!!

Next: Zelene, our precious staff will be leaving the company after this month. So, I would like to wish her a wonderful journey in her future seeking. And thank her for the committment in work rendered in our company.

Sorry 4 da' Slow Turtle Blog...Here's a monkey with a death wish!

2008-06-21T16:25:00.003+08:00

Yup, my reader feedback me on my slow loading page.

I had no idea what went wrong, so I remove a sidebar and abt 50% of my widgets to faraway land. Hope it load faster to not further irritate us.

Hmm..I'm still rectifying on the problems. Thou' I love 2 sidebars, guess I'll just have to make do with one 1st.

Since introducing Haloscan comments to my blog. Felt a little regret. Cos comments no longer appear on my blogger dashboard, which I prefer so, but in my email. Also, I'm forced to remove the top commentators widget due to some unreadable updating issue.

Worst to worst all my previous lovely comments were hidden. I treasure each and every comments of my readers thoughts, so now I can't remove haloscan nor return to the old state.

Words of advise: If anyone is intending to beautify their comments box, do so in the first place when the blog is set up.

The old recent comments widget also don't apply anymore, luckily I still have haloscan as a backup, at least some compensation.

I still prefer original blogger comments and intense debate comments thou'.

Hmmm...sometimes really have to decide well, cos removing & installing takes time. I guess being a blogger also requires being a mini-technicianist too.

Ahhh..guess tat's gd in some way, since I've lengthen my post width for easier reading, and I'm able to load bigger pics and bigger videos for everybody.

A monkey with a death wish

This gibbon found himself who to play with.. This is actually an adult gibbon verses a couple of tiger cubs. Of course the gibbon would win, he's got a few years of experience on those cubs. It looks like he was was having a total blast at the tiger cubs' expense, and the sheer grace and speed of the creature moving through.

Monkeys are always cheeky & naughty, no? Ah, playful..yes playful!

And irrelevant topic: I've got pretty bad abdominal pain since last night. Seems like something is rupturing my intestine inside. From time to time, I suffer piercing to pinching pain. Couldn't really sleep well cos at times it pains me up. Even in dreams I'm dreaming & feeling the same pain, guess it's real pain in reality.

From last night till now... ahhhaaiii....Is it bacteria in my intestine or what?

Dream vs Ambition

2008-06-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

Looking back...one of my aspiring occupation was to be an air stewardess, apart from being an actress, singer, interior designer or lawyer.

Such thoughts are often stalled or burst with mental swamp, aka "BIG excuses". Like I have tatt, I used to think I'm not tall enuff, etc etc.

In fact, just at this age, I begin to realize tat I actually satisfy criterias as a SIA girl, with qualifying height, looks, able to swim a lap, etc. Yet I'm very late. Few years later than it should be. Currently, the median age for most SIA girls is about 20 years old, so it seems I've to blend into the younger crowd. As if it wasn't enuff, rubbing salt to wound, I intend to have a baby soon after.

Caught between a job that I desire and a new life that I wish for, it's a difficult choice to decide. Even thou' I'm eligible, have to incline tots of craving that job. The walk-in interview is at sheraton towers hotel on this coming sunday, june 22.

Hmm...people used to tell me an air stewardess is identical to a waitress; just that is a first-class waitress. Why? Why does girl like to pick those dreamy career like singer, model, air hostess...

The pay of an air stewardess isn't high, perhaps up to $3,500 per month. Just that many of my fav. jobs in the past was in the F & B career, where I think I'll make a competent top one. Another reason is I love to travel, to see the whole world before I leave the earth.

I try kicking away the intention of being a SIA girl, for the dream of conceiving a cute child is an even inspiring one for me. A walk into a new stage of life. To hold on a little hand, and impart life knowledge to em'.

To realize my dreams in reality, I need to know the true utmost good & important situation to kindle. So, I decided to set forth my life, with new motto, a change in spirit, constant motivation, positive attitude to revive my dying career into a successful one, for this is where I can make my realistic dream to travel the world come true.

And to sit as a passenger travelling for holidays, not travelling for work. The best reasons to motivate myself, and persuade myself to pull up my socks and achieve great dreams.

Sharoning:
*remember to love your job;
*remember to love what you do;
*remember to love sales;
*remember to love your customers;
*bring on enthusiasm and work hard to live life to the fullest!

Come to think of it,
it sounds sweet!

Stuffed!

2008-06-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

Main meal...

cookie...

apple...

bread with peanut butter & kaya...

green bean soup...

ang gu kui...

Can someone stop me from stuffing me-self???

I smell curry...

tomorrow cooking curry chicken to go with rice & bread...

haizz, wat to do?

Meeting the girls tomorrow...miss em' so much..!

Liaoning girl Part 3

2008-06-19T22:28:00.006+08:00

This is gonna be a long piece of news translation, as it's all originated from Chinese source. I'll try my best to translate and hope it answer the curious doubts to metamorphallic.

Following Part 1 of how a young lady, named Zhang Ya, from the province of China, Liaoning, cursed the tragedy victims of the recent Sichuan's Earthquake in May.

Part 2 mentions about her arrest in an internet cafe in the province of Shenyang (China).

This is actually a part 3 sequel of her stories.

Let's talk about her case first.

大骂四川灾民“辽宁女”未触犯《刑法》Extensive scolding of Sichuan's victims, "Liaoning girl" did not offend "Criminial Law"

Many would have expected her to be thrown into jail following the raging commoners commentaries and police arrest, forgiveness is ethically unpardoned. Contrary to that, she escaped the brush with law with a small loophole.

On the day of the mourning, her openly insulting act should respectfully deemed as serious offence complemented with a jail-term. She opportunise on the usage of interactive online media to openly shamed and abused the whole Chinese citizen.

As insulting crime categorise in "infringing citizen's personal right, and democracy rights", therefore insulting crime on the object victim is citizen's personal right, so the insulted party must be a designated natural human (citizen), pointing to either one or more specific people. But it should be concrete, with the ability to verify. Yet the "specific natural human" should not be a unit, or a generalize colony. Hence, insulting a specific Sichuan person infest an insulting crime, however insulting an unit lifted the composition crime.

According to the "criminal laws" provision, in "perturbing public order crime" and "jeopardizing public safety crime" these 2 classification of crime, there's insulting country's flag, coat of arms, and instigating nationality hatred, nationality discrimination crime, including fabricating and propagating untrue terror message crime. However, these accusation are not applicable to the "Liaoning girl".

She is indeed discriminating Sichuan people, but Sichuan people is not a nationality. She is indeed scolding people but is not rumouring. She is indeed insulting Sichuan people but is not insulting country flag or coat of arms, so the above-mentioned law rules take no means on her.

One of the principle of criminal laws is “罪刑法定，法无明文不为罪” (Crime is determined by criminal law, Law in lacking of state in writing [laws/rules] not served as Crime). This sentence depicting if there is a lacking of certain rules in the provision, the court, cannot depend on the basis to reason by analogy or public will to convict punishment measure, even if everyone hated her exceedingly.

So, insulting non specific majority people is not set as crime, and to replenish the loophole on insulting personal rights in time is the legislation issue. Even if the criminal law has been altered, the girl will still not be punished, as it has already past her case.

She was lucky to escape her jail term, thou' this is what most netizens are unwilling to see.

浪子回头 Return of a prodigy son

The Liaoning girl, Zhang Ya went to Wenchuan's (in Sichuan) Big earthquake's memorial hall and apologise, lighting candles for the victims; it is said that her brother even brought her to take a look at Sichuan.

辽宁女张雅父亲的公开致歉信 Liaoning girl, Zhang Ya's father open letter's apology

Pitiful Parents, the child commit a mistake, yet let the old...But, really need to tighten strict discipline.

Zhang Ya is my daughter. We, as parent, was at fault for not educating her well. This child incomprehend matter, at this moment of country's pain, she did an intolerable affair that no China citizen could forgive. I know everyone will not forgive her, and the law will not forgive her as well. But I hope you all can understand the worries as a parent towards the child.

I give everyone, give Sichuan's people, give China people say a "SORRY"!

Zhang Ya is currently experiencing psychological crumble...I beg you all not to force her any longer. I will give everyone an answer, give Sichuan people an answer. Since I knew about the news, her mother has been very worried..almost couldn't walk stably.

May everyone forgive her, is it alright?

Her mother and I had been working in foreign land, and we have decided to return to Liaoning immediately..I beg everyone not to hurt her. This is what is a father's utmost sincere apology and hope.

Lastly, with regards to the unworthy girl, we will put in greater effort to supervise her and urge her.

Her mother and I had decided to donate all our home saving to the Sichuan's victims. Hope that everyone can strive to pass through this crisis.

I kneel to the Sichuan's citizen!!!

I request everyone to cast rationality to treat this matter. Zhang Ya's performance is only so much of a child's ignorance representation, for instance like non mainstream compulsive dance group. Now, the internet has indeed destructed many youth,

Irregardless of everybody's forgiveness, we as parents, will definitely implement strict discipline on her. Hope that everyone can reason rationale thinking for the consideration of this whole matter.

I will not be chancing the hope of everyone's forgiveness, especially in the midst of the country's difficulty. Hope that everyone can lend a helping hand to forgive this ignorant girl.

Zhang Ya's ignorance speech is totally a result of our bad discipline. The whole matter should be undertaken as our responsibility.

Please do not find her again. Please, I beg you all!! I can only hope that the influence of this matter to be brought down to the minimum level. I hope that everyone can be rational not to scold people.

Sichuan's people: SORRY!

Liaoning's brothers and sisters: SORRY!

China's Old and young masters: SORRY!

This is totally ignite by the fault of our bad discipline. We had decided to donate all our life-long savings to Sichuan's disaster region's victims. Hope they can overcome the obstacle soon!!

If anything should happen to my daughter, her mother will not live as well. Are you all going to be so merciless?

You all wouldn't even take for granted the deepest request of two elderly aging over 100 years. We have no more strength to say any further. This will be my last sending the invitation, if you really want to drive my daughter to her deathbed, that means you are destroying a family...

Zhang Ya is now in a local police station, her mother & I will persuade her. She is in the process of accepting the criticism for the mistake she committed. I hope that everyone will stop pursuing this matter. The concern is not Zhang Ya, but Sichuan people!

After Xiao Ya's matter has ended, we only hope to live nicely.

If anyone is trying to make things difficult for us, we will have to seek aid from the law.

I believe the majority of China people is rational!

可怜的父母,小孩犯了错,却让老人家...不过真的需要严加管教

张雅是我的女儿，我们做家长的没有教育好她是我们的不对，这个孩子不懂事，在这举国悲痛的时刻，她做了一个让中国人民所不能原谅不能容忍的事情，我知道大家不会原谅她，法律也不会原谅她，但是我希望你们能够明白一个做父母的对自己孩子的担心，我给大家给四川人民，给中国人民说:对不起！张雅现在已经精神快崩溃了..求求你们不要再逼她了.我们会给大家一个交代.给四川人民一个交代.我知道这个消息了以后她母亲很担心..几乎路都走不稳!请大家原谅她.好吗?我跟她母亲在外地打工.我们决定马上回辽宁...求求大家不要伤害她.这是一个做父亲的对大家真切的道歉以及希望.最后对于这个不肖女.我们以后会努力监督她.督促她.我跟她母亲决定,把家里积蓄全部捐赠给四川受灾人民.希望大家能努力度过这一难关.我给四川人民跪下了!!!

我请求大家可以用理性去看待这个事情，张雅表现的只是那么多无知的孩子的代表，譬如劲舞团，非主流，现在网络的确残害了很多青少年，无论大家原谅不原谅她，我们做父母的以后一定对她严加管教，希望大家用理性的思维去考虑这整个事件，我不是奢望大家会原谅她，但是现在国难当头，希望大家伸出你们援助的手，原谅一个无知的女孩，张雅完全是由于我们没有管理好才说出那么无知的话，整个事情应该由我们夫妻两人承担，请大家不要找她了，求求你们了！！

　　我只希望现在能把这次的事件影响降低到最小，我希望大家都能够理智的不再骂人，　　

四川的人民，对不起！　　

辽宁的兄弟姐妹们，对不起！　　

中国的老少爷们们！对不起！　　

这完全是由于我们做家长管理不当引起的　　

我们已经决定把我们多年积蓄全部捐赠给四川灾区人民。希望他们能够早日度过难关！！！

　　如果我女儿真的出了什么事情，他母亲也活不了。你们难道真的就那么残忍？两个年过半百的老人最真诚的请求你们也不理会。我们已经没有力气去说更多了，这是我的最后一次发帖，如果你们真要至我女儿与死地，那你们毁的就是一个家庭...　　

张雅现在已经在派出所了,我跟他母亲劝她去的.她犯的错误她正在接受批评.我希望大家不要再就这个事情继续下去了.我们要关注的不是张雅.而是四川人民!等小雅的事情结束.我们只希望好好生活.如果有人想继续为难我们,我们只能请求法律援助了``我相信大多数中国人民是理智的!

omg, infuriating black

2008-06-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

Look how much the black has spread.

Dyeing Black, dark brown or brown?

Hmm...

soon.

Lazing

2008-06-18T02:38:00.000+08:00

Lazing..lazing...

Ya, I know, I've beeen nauti! neber update regularly.

Tat's so unlike me.

Tat' not the truth ya'! Cos recently too many drama to watch, too many items to pack, lemme juz lax a whhile...

wil b back few hours later....

Actually I've got so much to talk abt, too MUCH to type,
so errrr...mayb I can do some recording ?x%*#o^

I'll be back with some old time ah lian pics, so stay tune to da' dig out discoveries ya'

Oh ya, and...., make sure u're half starved b4 u're visiting again.

Dun wanna appease your hunger nor make u puke.

One turn-off foto wif ma' casual attire. :p

I'm back!

2008-06-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

Yeah, yeah! yeah...

These past few days had just settled some personal stuff, and was not around to do any blog post.

But..me is just pretty dead beat. But still, xoxo my blog.

Hmm..I'm gonna update very soon.

Glad that things went pretty smoothly. Hope to keep it up!

Muacks*

Sexy Girl Vs Drooling Judge

2008-06-15T10:00:00.000+08:00

Popular korean tv show features sexy and beautiful girl challenge the judge

Insane Japan PrANKS

2008-06-13T15:02:00.002+08:00

I simply like their pranks! Fun!

Please don't do that! Parent's heartfelt apology on behalf of children's action will not dissolve public resonance.

2008-06-12T22:05:00.003+08:00

First recent example:

Parents of the recent Japan stabbing rampage had rendered their deepest sincere apology on behalf of their child's action.

They felt terribly sorry for the people who lost their lives and were injured by their son's action.

Their son, Kato is in custody of prosecutors, who could press charges that would lead to the death penalty.

Kato said he wished that "somebody could have stopped him" as he went on the stabbing spree.

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Does this mean Kato couldn't keep his cool on the eve he planned the rampage till the day itself?

Who could stop Kato from the stabbing spree with him holding on to the deadly weapon?

Why hold regrets only to later harbour reflection to the wrongdoings, isn't it rational to perceive harming one's life is deathly WRONG?
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Second recent example:

So, what happened to the Liaoning girl, the one who cursed Sichuan's victims to death? Somebody asked me. So, I prepare a follow-up which is to be publish following this post.

She was unfortunately NOT JAILED, and her father fronted the media with an apology as well. Some other parts I'll mention it in greater details as it's in mandarin translation, it took me a bit of time.

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No doubt when things grew detrimentally blemished, loving parents are always the first to step out to apologise for their futile upbringing, and the resultant damage.

It's probably b'cos they feel it's the minimum they could do for their child in addition to blaming their ownselves for overlooking their child's behavior & deed.

It's their way of reacting to the media, rather than hide or run away from the situation.

They could probably approach the media for the announcement of public apology or reversely the media might be shining the spotlight onto them for responses.

I think such is only standing on the frontier of shame, and one hell of braving it through their unconditional benevolence love.

I know those parents felt pain, for their child and for the hurt or dead.

Hmm...somehow, apart from what I had mentioned above. I think it's a useless apology other than just a meaningful apologetic speech. It is however a superficial sentence, not actions to replenish their sorriness.

To keep their sorry or not, I believe it doesn't matter to anyone, because ultimately what is done cannot be undone, and their apology will not reverse the situation in anyway. The parents could save their apologetic breathe for their child instead.

The public would surely want something from the person who bind the lockets. An apology, a punishment or something....whatever!

The child is influence by so many factors in the surrounding environments and ridiculous analogy in their mindset, I would say upbringing constitute 30 to 50 % depending on individual, and the rest is other affecting factors.

So, what changes the child is not solely mother or father, I wouldn't want my mum to apologise on my behalf if I commit a deadly sin. It's pointless! I will be the one to bear the consequence and bravely face the music of whatever it is, even if everyone spit on me or pour shits over, or think I'm a bastard, so shall it.

I'm so annoyed that parents do something for their child, which I know & have repeated several times is great love, but what about words from the person itself?

Does the Liaoning girl truly felt guilty?

Is the Liaoning girl sincerely repentant?

Is the Tokyo knifeman direfully SORRY? PAIN? CONSCIENCE GUILT? REMORSEFUL?

DOES THEY ACTUALLY KNOW THE GRAVE MISTAKE THEY COMMIT???????????_________________________________

I belong to the public as well, and even if I'm ain't part of those families, I felt hurt by the arousing malice, perhaps wanting more from the sinful person than a parent's explanation.

That's all! Just feeling a tad down when recalling those bloody scene.

Art in my Home

2008-06-10T15:28:00.001+08:00

I'm contemplating on performing something artistically exotic at home. But I'm not too sure which of the following idea(s) I'm gonna pick up to cosmetic the blank wall.

1) Big art wall portrait
2) Shadow casting of a nude body
3) Collection of visitors' body print's signatory
4) Multi-color Symmetric Cubic
5) Sketch a whole wall of jigsaw puzzle

I think I bear some genes of artistic cells :D
I envision the blank wall transforming into a magnificent master art piece instead.

Pertinent to the upcoming art festival of street paintings & art walls.

ArtGraffiti

ItalianStreetArts

Perhaps metamorphose my home into an art gallery; like some Japanese artists in Japan & local artists @ Chip Bee Garden Holland Village in Singapore

Would love to overdose a decorative home wall akin to Love Graffiti on the wall around Juliet's (Shakespear's Romeo & Juliet) home balcony in Verona, Northern Italy, too.

Maybe spray-paint an enticing Sakura Kaleidoscope

or construct prints into 3D or 4D effects.

Wow....Big project. Which one to select? Hmmm.... :#

Stabbing rampage in Japan, Tokyo

2008-06-09T20:30:00.001+08:00

Tokyo, Akihabara - Tired of living, he killed people!

A MAN went on a stabbing spree on Sunday in Central Tokyo neighbourhood famed for comic-book subculture, killing 7 people and injuring at least 14 people, with about 5 of them left unconscious.

The man was subdued after stabbing bystanders near the bustling train station of Akihabara, an area known for electronics stores and is a haven for fans of video-games and comic-book culture.
The man was driving a truck that swerved into pedestrians before he got out and began stabbing people at random, according to media reports.

Reuters erroneously reported that the attacker was “identified as a 25-year-old member of one of Japan’s yakuza crime syndicates.” Japanese media reports originally only said the man claimed to be a gangster. They now report he has admitted the gangster claim was not true.

Akihabara is usually very crowded on Sundays, with its main roads closed to cars so that pedestrians can enjoy shopping.

These photos, allegedly showing police arresting the attacker.

The suspect, Tomohiro Kato, has told police that he drove a rental truck all the way from Shizuoka for the purpose of killing random people in Akihabara.

2-channel users have been repeatedly posting screen captures of shameless idiots waving to the camera during a news broadcast:

On Monday, investigators said that they were looking at a series of messages sent by mobile phone to a website that appeared to foretell the attack.

“I’ll crash my vehicle into people and if the vehicle becomes useless, I’ll get out a knife. Goodbye everyone!”, Japanese media reports quoted one posting early on Sunday morning as saying.

Subsequent messages appeared to chart the suspect’s journey from Shizuoka to Tokyo.

“No postponement because of rainy weather,” said a later message, Kyodo news agency reported.

Another posting, some 20 minutes before the attack, simply said: “It’s time,” Kyodo added.

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The shocking news of banging vehicles to killing human beings I last heard of was in 2003, where an elderly man plowing his car into Santa Monica Farmers Tentage, killing 8 people & injuring 45 others. Yet it doesn't seem like a substantial pre-plotted plan like the above.

It reminds me of those wonderful times where I roamed around Akihabara (the place is a heavenly electronic town with plenty of buildings and storeys of comps, gadgets, interesting fun & innovated stuffs, comics store, sex video shop? pasted with plenty of naked AV girls posters -> not too sure abt this thou', just got a peep from outside) on a beautiful Sunday watching people who sing & perform on the huge enclosed road, as the whole wide stretch of streets was closed.

I just can't imagine how the silly guy above would stood to resort such weird actions, hurting the innocents upon the contenement of his own boring life. Y don't he try to piss & shoot at his own face while squatting on the open street or snatches somebody's else unfinished ice-cream & licking candidly away like he never taste before toppling the rest of it deep into his OPEN eyes.

You mean boring ~> kill people = What? Fun, Joy, Excitement, headline news in the international media?

I think should lay a series of punishment as portrayed in the scripts of SAW (the movie), to be enforce on him. No, I still think it's too cheap for his boring life!

Maybe should punish him & bored him to death while trying hard to keep him alive, and don't even spare him a single chance to suicide on his boring field.

Gosh, just sympathise those people & foreigners. Who would've tot this kind of freaking horrendous incident would come to pass on the beautiful streets of the famous town.

One side, we the humans are safe from diastrous harm, the other side, humans eat/kill humans. We can't even treasure our lives properly with surrounding affections.

Human war, Country war & Catastrophe war.

I just wished that the world would be peaceful & end all these.

Reward bloggers to increase blog comments

2008-06-08T01:21:00.014+08:00

Prior to an interesting question in a comment posed by 3point8 who blogs at http://4-4-4-4.blogspot.com/ regarding the post on tips to increase blog comments, I've found & search info on that, which other bloggers might be interested in as well.

There are a few ways to reward bloggers to further increase comments in your blog.

1st: Install Recent comment widget. For example, see mr miyagi's sidebar. (This is not really a reward, treat it more like a tip to induce comments)

2nd: Install Top commentators widget, as to what is displayed on my right sidebar, or 3point8's along with the number of comments made and a link back to their site or blog.

This Plugin encourages feedback and discussion by rewarding reader for making a comment.

3rd: Feature or highlight best/top commentator in a blog post with full links? I guess most bloggers would like that. (So, this post I'm featuring one of the best commentator in my blog, and 'taichi' at least some traffic over =D)

Aiyo, actually 3point8 stimulated plenty of comments on his blog o-ready. So, it's more like I should learn from him, ya?

4th: Display comment avatar, so that ppl can see their face there ;p (I'm trying to do this, but please give me time. Really busy with tweaking here & there to my 2 month's old blog)

Hopefully, some of the pointers work.

Note: So, ppl hurry! If you want to increase your site traffic, please bang! me more okay? Thou' there's no 20,000 readers like XX, but at least got 200 daily & is still counting. Don't be shy! SEE your link at the top commentator!

I've got some commenting tips from another site, which you might be interested in.

5 dirty Tactics to increase comments:

1) Fake your comments - No one wants to be the first to comment on anything, but they don’t mind joining in. You can always fake it, by submitting fake comments yourself or by hiring others to do it. Fortune 500 companies do this too, they call it “content seeding” and every major site has done this to some extent before they go live, so as not to look empty to new visitors.

2) Use visual stimulation - Use pictures that appeal to emotions, for example pictures of sexy women, cute toddlers or even cute puppies, depending on your market. Don’t pretend like you’ve never seen this happen on someone else’s blog before. You probably commented on that post too, right? Find a reason to put that picture into your post or else this won’t work. Use as often as required.

3) Comment bashing - A software like Instant Blog Links will get you a list of blogs where you can post your comments. Then, either post really negative comments or post a link to your blog that bashes the original post. You’ll get a lot of angry people dying to comment on your blog.

4) Re-light the fire - Do you know some topics never run out of comments? Are men smarter than women? Are dogs better than cats? Are blondes better than brunettes? Are Macs better than PCs? Some topics just have no conclusions, and that means you can get an infinite amount of comments and be no closer to a resolution for the topic itself.

5) Write something stupid - Break the rules, and do something contrary to what people expect from you. Go silly on your posts and you can wake up the next morning to a few comments at least.

I hate mosquito!

2008-06-07T20:43:00.006+08:00

I hate the expensive fuel in Sg.

I hate paying more & more for my van's diesel as time goes by.

From $40++ to $50++ to $60++ to $70++, I've reached a FUCKING $80.

I seriously hate global oil hike!

AND,

I hate mosquito! I hate mosquito in every way!
I hate them leaving red-marks on my fair thighs!
I hate them biting on my knuckles & make me itchy!
Killing mosquito makes me a jail-free person, it's so wonderful!

and is one of the best things not included in the mention of state's law! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Thou' I found this comic strip interestingly cute.

(Click on image for larger version)

Skinny sharp-nosed mosquito laughing at the fat mosquito in the middle for wearing a stupid helmet.

Ended up, the fat mos. with helm was saved from the crash.

Serve them right!

But, they should all die!

Ye, I'm not a vegetarian anyway!

Simply put, I loathe mosquito!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please don't breed them at home & Keep your neighbourhood clean.

Let's play something new!

2008-06-07T00:11:00.001+08:00

Catch my dressing room stances,

Here goes:

* Sharoning * Sharoning * Sharoning * Sharoning

Pose the 24 stances with your best shots to mailbox:

mysharoning@gmail.com

Please include your Blog URL.

All will be posted with a link to your BLOG.

Have fun!

ps: Try to send in a middle resolution. Thanks!

Bang me if you see me in toilet!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

Nude photos, anyone?

Racist Subjects, anyone?

Why are people so shy?

Shy of banging their views on whatever piece of news or photos they read?

And only cross arms & stretch head out, watching from aside.

From my survey, it's darn difficult to be banged with comments.

Top blogger in sg perhaps draw a 1%-3% of comments on an excellent controversial post.

I believe readers who can find blog page; can type.

Or is most reader's keyboard's teeth missing like mine?

But, I'm still able to type on the F4 & D key despite it's disappearance.

I found this, which you might find to be useful.

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Mr Kennysia once state: "whoever blogs in toilets needs to get their heads checked."

Pictures & news of Harmful Blogging from Mr Kennysia here.

Seriously! I'm almost caught as the person of the above-mentioned.

SEE? (Please don't send me to the asylum after reading this!)

Soon, the blogosphere will be cluttered with Bloggers-Butt-On-The-Toilet-Seat Pics.

With Mr Kennysia leading the way, we'll be assured.

Besides paddling in bed infill with blogging contents & all, & pissing in toilets pondering over bloggers' blog, I think I need to carry a WiFi Ipod or Apple IPhone as a companion 24 hours x 7 days a week, if not for the inconveniency of bringing my lappie into the loo.

P.S: After reading this, please bang me with Something weird, or uninteresting, or shitty, or funny, or slutty, or disgusting will make do as well, because you had already caught me in toilet, which is an unusual scene.

It'll all be transform into lovely sketch of history.

Check if I'm deserving again?

See? I blog with my food in da' mouth! Deserving enuff?!?!

I'm not being Outrageous, b'cos I only live once & never will know when my Full-Stop Ends......................................................

You should do so!

Bang me!

It's weekend soon, People!

=D

US blogger charged in Singapore over 'Prostituting' E-mail Insult

2008-06-05T11:23:00.002+08:00

A California-based blogger who allegedly insulted a judge in an e-mail of "prostituting herself" has been arrested and charged in Singapore.

Gopalan Nair, a former Singapore lawyer who is now a US citizen, was arrested in the city-state Saturday and charged Monday with insulting a public servant.

Nair, 58, was later remanded in custody for one more week as the authorities said they needed to investigate further.

He is due back in court next Monday.

"We can confirm that Gopalan Nair, a US citizen, was arrested on May 31," a US embassy spokesman said, adding that "we are monitoring the case closely."

According to a court document, Nair is charged with insulting Justice Belinda Ang Saw Ean last Thursday by sending an email to Singapore's attorney general and solicitor general last week, criticizing Singapore Supreme Court Judge Belinda Ang's which said she "was throughout prostituting herself during the entire proceedings, by being nothing more than an employee of Mr Lee Kuan Yew and his son and carrying out their orders".

(The handling of a hearing to assess damages in a defamation lawsuit brought by Prime Minister Lee Hsien Long and Minister Mentor Lee Kwan Yew against Chee Soon Juan, the secretary-general of the opposition Singapore Democratic Party, and his sister, Chee Siok Chin)

Nair's lawyer Chia said the comments essentially repeated those Nair made in a recent blog about a defamation case filed by Singapore's leaders against an opposition party and its members.

In the blog, Nair strongly criticised a three-day legal hearing last week at which Singapore founding father Lee Kuan Yew and his son, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong, testified.

Nair is charged with insulting a public servant, which on conviction carries a maximum fine of 5,000 dollars (3,660 US) or one year in prison.

- AFP & PCworld

Gopalan Nair's blog at http://singaporedissident.blogspot.com/
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His post entry on Thursday, May 29, 2008

Singapore. Judge Belinda Ang's Kangaroo Court

He wrote: Slamming MM Lee & PM Lee on their intimidating power in Singapore abusing the legal system for their political ends.

His post entry on Friday, May 30 2008

Lee Kuan Yew: If bloggers who defame me identify themselves, I will sue them!

He wrote: Revealing his traces of identity whilst in Singapore for the hearing on Dr Chee & sister's case, and challenged MM Lee on his judiciary power.

Saturday, May 31 2008 => arrested in US.

The strong power of insulting/defamation even if he was in way of timezone difference killed his loud words.

- Over a dozen members and supporters of the Singapore Democratic Party held a four-hour vigil outside the Police Cantonment Complex on June 3, calling for the release of former Workers' Party member Gopalan Pallichadath Nair.